Have YOU lost faith in God?

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People often begin to lose faith in God as a result of their life experiences. Some face things that seem cruel or unbearable. Others are confronted with information presented from a secular viewpoint that rejects God.

Through experiences like these, people start questioning whether the God of the Bible truly has the answers to life’s problems. As they begin to doubt God, their faith begins to waver and weaken. As a result of their doubts, they may stop worshipping and communicating with God, which in turn, makes it even easier for their faith to diminish and eventually die.

God wants us to reach out to Him in faith, even when our faith feels very small. He wants us to trust Him even when it seems there is not much reason to do so. Several millennia ago, a man named Job experienced huge financial losses, deep grief in losing his children, and severe physical illness. At a time like this, Job would have seemingly had many reasons to doubt God and lose his faith. His wife even suggested that he curse God and die.

Job, however, rebuked her for her foolishness. Although he, too, at times questioned why these things were happening to him, he always returned to God in faith. His statement of faith in God is applicable for everyone who finds their faith wavering as a result of life experiences: “Though he [God] slay me, yet will I trust in him” (Job 13:15).

If you feel that you are losing faith in God or have already lost your faith, reach out to God anyway. Muster the small amount of faith you have to tell Him exactly how you feel and to seek His Word for answers to your life. Surround yourself with strong Christian people who will support you though your times of doubt. Not only will you experience the blessing of walking in relationship with a powerful God through the ups and downs of life, you can also anticipate a time when you will be received by Him and ushered into everlasting glory.

People lose faith in God for various reasons. On the following pages are two short accounts of people who lost their faith. 

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  1. Thanks Anthony, We are all in need of a miracle, that never comes. I’m not Catholic, I’m Baptist so I don’t understand that part. But you hit that annoying trait on the head. JOB is getting on my nerves. Another problem is that too many people only know how to quote scripture instead of just answering the question. I also am tired of all the useless terms like, God works in mysterious ways, God’s ways are unknowable, wait for God’s perfect timing, you know all those “answers” for they don’t know. I feel all your pain Anthony, I too feel that way. Only Hell keeps me here. I pray that you may find peace in your life. GOD Bless You

    • @Anthony @Kenneth @Helen So, let’s forget Job. In fact, let’s forget the Bible. Let’s forget that God exists. Job is just a philosophical metaphor. The Bible is just a book of myths. God is just the figment of the imagination of insecure people. Now where will we go for answers? If you write off God and the Bible, then there are no answers. No hope. No way out. If you don’t like Job, read Ecclesiastes. I wrote a whole book entitled “Where is God (when life doesn’t make sense)” based on Ecclessiastes. If the Bible is mythology, and God is imaginary, then you are just caught in the endless cycles of a materialistic perpetual motion machine with no way out but death. Solomon considers that. He also looks at work and pleasure and money and other things, but concludes that all of them are just vanity and vexation of spirit. A lot of the people who write these comments seem to be stuck at that point in life. It’s a crossroads. You can take the dark road to oblivion and a godless eternity. Or you can take the other road leading to life eternal. Job decided to continue on the one road. It appears that Solomon may have taken the other one. The point is, it wasn’t God, it was their personal choice. Jesus said, “Come unto me, all ye who are heavyladen and YOU WILL FIND REST.” You want rest? Choose it. –LB

  2. Thanks, I appreciate your input Helen and LB

  3. I keep hearing “for a season”,”in a season” what is meant by season, a month, a year, a decade, your entire life.

  4. An existence of misery is what is destroying my faith. I’m almost 52 years old, a waste of air. I gave myself to Jesus about 40 years ago;I thank God for Jesus and His sacrifice for our eternal souls, but can’t find anything to be thankful for in this existence.
    There are only downs,no ups to be found. God does take from us without return. 2014 God took my mother from me, she was the only person I could talk to. Since then I haven’t been able to find anyone else that understands me the way she did. As far as I can tell, God has never answered my prayers for anything important to me. I prayed for healing for my mother, she died. I prayed for my family to get back together, never happened. I’ve prayed for a good job, I’m disabled and can’t work. I prayed for a mate,still single. Happiness, contentment, peace and piece of mind, purpose, sense of accomplishment, the list goes on and on and on. I am and have “lived” in poverty my whole existence; I can’t afford to do anything to help my situation, as everything costs money I don’t have, and have been begging God for help. Supposedly God only does good, if this is what God thinks is good, I fear Heaven as much as Hell. Only in God’s eyes is suffering “good”. If God treats us this badly on earth, how much more pain will Heaven be.

    • Jesus said, “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. (Mat 11:28-30)

    • I know that waste of air feeling. That feeling of worthlessness,. I battle that also. I ask God why he brought me here constantly, and there’s never an answer. The only way He lets me know I’m on the wrong path, is by having me fired… does wonders for my self esteem and faith. I’ll pray for you, and know there are people out in the world who suffer like you. It’s comforting to know there are others like me too. God Bless You, I pray you regain your faith, and that God reveals his purpose and worth for you.

      • Take time to read the book of Job. He could have written many of the comments that show up here. I am amazed at the way his faith in God survived. We may not see the reward of our faith in this life, but it is real. So hang on everyone!

    • @ Kenneth Gray & Helen… I know where both of you are coming from as I feel like I’m there now. I’m not going to waste space by going through my story again. But, for what it’s worth I’ve prayed for both of you – and hopefully in this Christmas season the Lord will have some little pity on us and grant us some peace and happiness ! I don’t know about the rest of you, but I’m so &€##ing tired of people throwing ” Job ” in our faces. As un-christian as this sounds, I’d like to see some of them live OUR lives for 30 days and feel and experience EVERYTHING we do. The ONLY thing that has been of any help to me is the Catholic story and devotion to the “Divine Mercy”. It’s not some obscure and cold Bible verse. It’s of the 20th century. Though one thing that tightens my intestines is all the religious sites that are always hitting people up for money. I live on under 1,000 a month so by definition I’m poor. I know that organizations need money to operate. But necessity becomes excess, and excess becomes greed. But I hope the Divine Mercy is of some help to you.

  5. I have been thinking of suicide thoughts recently but I cant do it because I am a coward and I worry what is after death. I am also worried because I love my family and I still want to live, but I want all my pains to end. I lost my faith in God because there is too much scientific evidence stating there is no God in this universe and when we die, we just degrade over time to nothingness. Please help me.

    • Hi Ken. I’m glad you see the damage that your suicide would do to those who love you. In many cases suicide is a selfish way out. Please find some professional help and also give God another chance in your life. Have you called our phone team? [833-367-7884] They would be happy to share with you and pray for you. –LB

      • Hi LB,
        I’m so sad to see that you say suicide is a selfish way out. My 15 year old son took his life. He was not being selfish. He was in pain. He had chronic pain in his body that no doctor could help. He was emotionally abused by his father. He was bullied in school. He was a sensitive and young person who didn’t understand at the hardest age of any age. I am broken to my core that he did that but I have never blamed him for being selfish.

        And telling someone who is suicidal that they are being selfish just intensifies the feelings of worthlessness. They already feel so bad.
        Please rethink what you say. It pains me so much to hear that.

        • Renee,

          I do not think that it was LB’s intention to say that someone who commits suicide is selfish, rather suicide itself is a selfish act. As a multiple attempt survivor, I know that there is a difference. I hope to provide clarity to my thought process.

          The act of suicide is selfish. It leaves those left behind robbed of that person being in their lives, financial hardship, unanswered questions and countless what if statements, among so many things that I am leaving out.

          It would be in poor taste t say that someone who commits suicide is selfish. A suicidal person is not thinking rationally. Instead, a person like myself have a warped perception of reality. They feel feel worthless, undervalued and that no one will miss them, and even that the world will be better off without them. So… A person who is experiencing the aforementioned statements cannot be a selfish person, rather they view themselves as a selfless person, The problem is that a person committing suicide is not playing on a level playing field. So, when mental illness is involved, it is not selfish.

          However, I have personal experience where I feel that there were some suicides are completely selfish. I have personal experiences where family members have done things that resulted in suicide for pointless reasons.

          My great Grandfather killed himself with a shotgun. He was 63 years old and impregnated a 17 year old girl. When it became public, he walked out his back door and shot himself, because he did not want to go to jail.

          My aunt used to pretend to commit suicide all of the time. She would take pills and call my uncle and he would race home and she would be admitted to a hospital for 72 hours, or they would find out that she took nothing at all. One time she took so many pills and called my uncle. For the first time, he did not believe her and did not go home. She panicked and called 911. They actually saved her, but she was a type 1 diabetic and she would purposely pull out her IVs when family was coming. Three days in she pulled out the ports to quickly and went in a diabetic coma and never came out.

          Unlike your son, there are instances that could be construed as selfish. I cannot begin to imagine the hurt that you and your family have experienced. May you be comforted with many warm memories.

        • Thanks for your clarification. LB

        • Thanks Barry & LB,
          I guess I understand more of what you meant. But then I think isn’t anyone who is trying to alleviate their pain being selfish by doing so. Like if my stressful job was just too much for me and I left to get a less stressful, lower paying job, my family might think that was a selfish act. Ditching the job only benefited me and not my family who has to deal with a lower standard of living. They may not see that not dealing with a less stressful me as a benefit to them because the income is seems more important.

          So while my son took his life to end his pain, it traumatized us and set us up for a lifetime of grieving. But he had no way of really knowing/understanding the impact. One week before he did it, he was telling me well you only really love me because I’m your son. To which I answered ‘well of course, you are my son and I do love you’ He was thinking detaching himself as he was trying to find a way to commit himself to the act without feeling bad I guess. There was much more to the conversation but I reiterated my love over and over.

          I can never blame him. As far as I’m concerned he’s the victim and he lost his life unnecessarily.

          But I know that every situation is so very different and complicated.

    • Hi Ken,
      I wanted to answer you because I know first hand the pain of losing someone to suicide. I lost my precious 15 yr old son. The pain will never end for me or his sisters. The American Psychiatric Association associates the grief/ptsd from losing a loved one to suicide can be compared to that of a holocaust survivor and a combat war veteran. I can’t even begin to describe this pain. And I know it will always be a part of us because my son is a part of us. I’m sorry to tell you these things because I know in and of themselves these things do not ease your pain. But I just feel that people do not realize how much they are loved. I too struggled with suicidal thoughts after he took his life. I can still think suicidal thoughts when bad things happen. But I know I cannot do that to my adult daughters.

      Even in our tragedy, there were truths that kept me grounded. Like God saved us all. God took my son. I ask God to then use this pain so that I can honor my son. It’s not easy. Every holiday, every season, every birthday especially his and his date of passing, it just seems that around every corner is grief, grief and more grief. It’s been 3 1/2 years now.

      As far as scientific evidence, there is tons of evidence to the contrary. You can paint a picture one way or the other. I lived my whole life into my 30s and didn’t really believe in God. He opened my eyes and He is truly God. I didn’t want to be religious and I thought Christians were crazy and maybe some of them are crazy, but I mean even atheists are crazy, but don’t throw the baby out with the bath water. God does exist. There’s a good movie called Atheist Delusion by Ray Comfort and many other good movies on Amazon Prime.

      And I would say that if the faith you had in God was shattered by some atheist propaganda, then God did you a favor, because that wasn’t real faith in Him.

      I hope and pray God helps you to know Him. I hope you find your way out of pain. And you know what, you are probably a very sensitive person and maybe had some bad people around you or bad stuff happen to you and you are normal to feel pain because of it. People who are suicidal are not crazy. Many have been deeply and profoundly hurt in their souls. There are things that we were not built to deal with and causes trauma.

      I don’t know if you’ve seen a counselor, but can you maybe find a Christian counselor who can help you? Find a good church and listen to sermons online. I like to listen to Emergence Church in Totowa NJ. I’ve never stepped foot in it because I had a bad experience in a couple of churches and with the pain of grief, I am kinda burned out right now. But I know God doesn’t condemn me but I do pray He helps me because I worry about the state of my heart with everything I’ve been through. I am trying not to be bitter but I have backslidden in my thinking.

      Sorry this is so long. I just hope you are going to be ok. Please call the Suicide Hotline to talk or live chat. Go to https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/

      Please don’t take your life. Having thoughts of it just show that something is wrong. Re evaluate your life and what is causing you so much pain. Move, change jobs, get away from toxic people, don’t stay in situations that cause you so much stress. God gave us a brain to think and relationships to support us. Don’t do it alone. We all need people who care. If people don’t really know how much you are struggling, they can’t help you. If they don’t understand, make them understand. If you don’t know how to talk to them, go to a counselor to get help. You can have a family meeting with your counselor. You have options. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Pleaaaaase take steps no matter how hard they are. Lots of love to you xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

    • Ken,

      I would not call yourself a Coward. I would say that you are thinking rationally. If not, what happens after death would not concern you. I have completely lost my faith and I am desperately trying to get it back. I like to think that my desire to restoremy faith means that I have truly not lost it, I just need to get on the right path.Maybe you just need some direction. I hope that you find the help that you need.

  6. I’ve lost faith and have no dreams, goals nothing anymore. I still have sinful struggles after 10 years of being saved. Don’t even think I’m saved anymore. I’m ready for this life to be over anyway. I don’t think I’ll end my life but every now and then I’ll ask God to take me out. I have no purpose or patience. God can’t use me. I’m way too far from Him. Lost cause over here

    • Please call our toll free number 833-678-7884 and talk to someone on our phone team. They will be happy to share with you and pray for you. Remember, God loves YOU, and He really does want to help you, if you allow Him to.

      • Life is not fair at times, thats why we need rescuing. Most of the time we dont get the help we seek that causes us to lose faith . I used to share a lot about my faith but im losing my faith as well. I dont want to be this way but the frustration is so severe, depression too much to handle.😩😩😩

      • I tried calling you from Kenya but it didn’t go through ,i’m so broken right now ,i feel like my faith has already disappeared ,someone i lend money to just broke me into pieces by refusing to pay ,i feel so much anger inside me to a point that i cant even pray anymore .

        • Our toll-free numbers only work in North America. If you want to call from other parts of the world you can dial 01.878.217.2000 Note however that you will need to pay the charges for the call. Your local telephone company can tell you how much it would cost. I can understand that having someone refuse to pay money they owe you is probably a major hurdle in a country like yours. But I do feel that you are allowing the love of money to push your love for God out of your life. Money is just for here and now, but God is forever. Don’t let the love of money take over your life.

    • My faith in God is gone. I don’t believe in God’s and Jesus love for me. I’ve never felt it – at all. I’ve had so much go wrong and happen to me in my life that everyone pretty much thinks I’m making it up or exaggerating. I feel absolutely no comfort in the Bible. I’m Catholic and had a lot of suffering and abuse (not sexual) at the hands of priests etc and I can’t find one to talk to that either isn’t impertinent or who tries to justify it all. The stuff that has happened to me is not my fault. I don’t even look forward to supposed happiness in heaven. I don’t believe that God has any plans for me. I have no hope for any thing good ever happening for me. I’m 55, disabled, in chronic pain with no proper meds, I’m totally alone in this crummy world. There’s no one alive who cares if I live or die. And if I was fortunate enough to die in my sleep tonight, no one would notice, and I’d be decomposing before anyone would find me. I barely exist on $900 a month social security, and have no funds left to try to enjoy myself. I’m not even able to watch TV because I can’t afford cable or whatever. I’m not suicidal now, but I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m garbage to God and Jesus and I quit going to church because of the bad ways I’ve been treated by people. I used to care about people. I used to help people. And I’ve been taken advantage of so many times. I don’t apologise for not feeling good hearing Bible quotes. If God and Jesus truly love me then they need to show me. I have had so much pain that I don’t believe that anything good will come!

      • Jenyffer, I know it is hard to see the good things in life when you are suffering. But I’d encourage you not to give up on God but be thankful for what you do have. Some of the greatest hymns of faith ever written were by people languishing in a cold dungeon and knowing that they were going to die a martyr’s death soon. I don’t know how they could do it, but they had tapped into a lifeline with God that bypassed their circumstances and gave them a relationship with Him. I think you can do the same. Maybe start by thanking God for the $900 in income that you do get. Make a blessings list and take time every day to thank God for every item.

      • God will help you . Don’t worry my brother

      • I’m sorry you’re alone. I’m also very much alone, even though I’m married and have a huge family. loneliness, I think is what drives people to lose hope in God. It’s crushing. It saps your soul. God says that he is love yet so many many people live without it, so that sure doesn’t seem like he’s keep up his promises. This love of God that we’re suppose to experience is like holding on to an imaginary fairy. I know God is, aside from that I don’t think he cares what we do or don’t do, if we’re sad, happy, rich, poor… Life is hard. if you want I’ll correspond with you via email (dansela63@yahoo.com). Maybe it will help alleviate some of your loneliness. I wish you lived near by I’d come visit and keep you company every now and then. I have a very soft heart for lonely people and for people in chronic pain so I can totally understand why you feel the way you do. I think that you had someone to at least spend some time with, it will help easy some of the pain. Much of our emotional pain contributes a lot to our physical pain as well. Sending you good thoughts!

    • Please hang in there! God has something good for you , just have faith I have felt the same way you did. Remember God can use anybody, remember he said it would be the prostitute and tax collectors to enter the kingdom of heaven before the pharisees! Please hang in there, he used Paul who killed Christians and he is using me and I have cursed God to his face and he has forgiven me. Hang in their keep praying and tell him how you feel

      • telling people to keep hanging in there is ridiculous. They hang in there, that’s why they are where they are. NO ONE WILL COME RESCUE YOU..NO ONE. you either make it on your own or you don’t !

        • Really? So you would take away the last hope they cling to? How can that be an improvement? I have never seen cynicism make anyone happy.

    • On January 26th 2018 I lost 3 of my young daughters in a fire in Killeen Tx. I’ve had issues with family members, people around me, and also the woman I was with since then. I’ve lost so much faith in God that I’m not sure if there is even any coming back from that. Nobody charged with anything and people defending people that shouldn’t be defended. I don’t understand why God would place me in jail 5 days before the fire happened. Not even giving me a chance to save my girls.. That is not fair. I’ve always believed in God and never had a doubt in him until then. Lord knows I could have saved them but i went to jail on my birthday and I had no opportunity at all to save them. I feel like God shouldn’t have done that. I am a great father and my daughters were with me everyday. They didn’t deserve that. I want everybody to feel how I felt. I felt useless and vulnerable. I am weak from this.

  7. Hi. I just want to share my story, that I’m now experiencing anxciety and a nervous break down, But I’ve seen God, I’m not better yet, But my lord is just amazing, I’m going through a hard time about relationship and family things. I really want to tell it here.

  8. My faith in God is as good as dead at this point. To he honest, I wish that I could just go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow morning. I admit that these words are very harsh words considering that 17 years after I accepted Jesus into my life, I got baptized (June 9th this year). A lot has happened since I first accepted Jesus and most of it has been bad. My now ex-wife lost three children over two pregnancies during our marriage. Eventually we divorced. The divorce led to me becoming depressed to the point of attempting suicide. The depression, while I thought was the result of a divorce that I never wanted, was only one symptom of what was diagnosed as bipolar disorder. I most recently lost my job and now find myself on the verge of becoming homeless unless some miracle happens by the end of this month.

    I realized that once I lost my job, that God was asking me, “Do I have your attention now?” I held off being baptized for so long and I felt like God was taking everything from me to get me to pay more attention to Him. I did and quite honestly, I don’t feel anything. If anything, I feel like God is further away from me. I would pray and at times feel like He’s telling me to just be still and wait on Him to guide me through my situation, but nothing is happening. The same can be said for when I thought that I heard him say to act on something that I thought He wanted me to act on. Again NOTHING.

    I read my bible. I go to church. I go to men’s meetings at the church. I have people that pray for me and I do the same for them. Yet I feel NOTHING. Where stories of Job in the bible are supposed to give me hope in my situation, it instead makes me extremely angry towards God.

    I feel lost. I’m in extreme fear over my future, especially my most immediate future. I’ve read that passage from Matthew 6 about not worrying so many times. Yet here I am, not knowing if I can go on another day.

    I know that giving up on God won’t make my situation any better. But my constant prayers don’t seem to be helping either, no matter how often I keep trying to believe that God will come through. I’m at the end of my rope amd it’s a matter of time before I slip from that very rope.

    • Hi Clayton, salvation is not a matter of doing enough good things to please God. Nor is it a matter doing enough right things so that God will look after you. Have you talked to your pastor about your struggles? I think you need more help than I can give you in a paragraph online. Call our toll-free number and someone on our phone team will be glad to share with you and pray for you. 1-833-678-7884

      • My faith is really being tested. I just don’t like to see Preachers rich and so many of God’s people going without. I also don’t like that many church leaders are the ones who gives the most tithes. I have quit going to church and doing visitation. Mowing the church lawn every week. Didn’t never get help. Seeing others having fun is no fun. I pray but it’s fruitless. I went to Bible college 4 years Oh! That was also a big let down.

        • Sometimes the best thing we can do is to get our eyes off people and their mistakes and get them on Jesus, who makes no mistakes.

    • I feel n understand how you feel cause i feel the same way. Everything was taken away from me . I dont have anymore faith in anything and its too much to bear. I try o keep the faith but deep down i feel that God has forsaken me . So sad and miserable😩😩😩

    • Yeah I know how you feel. Day by day my condition gets worse and i don’t think I can hold.on any more. My faith seems lost too. I hope God reaches.out soon.

    • I lost my faith in God, my heart has been let down and broken by him and I did so much in this world as far as serving this country and giving what ever I had materialistic and money wise to totally stranger’s and friends and family members and I always talk and prayed to him and worshipped him and respected others and I never wanted to see another human suffering so I would even cry and prayed to God to put that person suffering into my body my heart and all I ask of God was the most simplest thing to keep my bond and relationship with my two little girls but he took that from me he took my health he took my strength and he watched me as I lost my job’s my home and I prayed to him over and over again for him to please help me but he chose not to help me and I begged and prayed to him to please just let me die but he wouldn’t even let me die and I watched all of these bad, evil people in the world get everything while his children and myself we just suffered and have nothing, I swear I tried to leave this world on my own but he won’t even let me leave this world and prayed so very very hard for him to release me from man’s world but he just won’t let go of me, all my life I have been suffering, born to a mother who gave me away as baby and I never smoked or did any kind of drugs and I don’t even drink alcohol but still I got diabetes and high blood pressure and failing kidneys and I hate being a black man because God created a race a nationality that everyone on the planet hate, why would he do that, I had no choice of being born and he said that all Men have free will and a choice but were was my choice when I was conceived because if I would have had a choice, I would have chosen not to be born, I hate my life that he given me I hate being a black man and I especially hate the family that I was born from and I hate this world, I just want him to just let me go, just let me rest and be at peace.

      • Jesus said, “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Mat 11:28-30) The prophet Isaiah talked about Jesus, and what he would experience on earth. Jesus understands how you feel and can bring rest to your soul. He is despised and rejected by men, A Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him; He was despised, and we did not esteem Him. Surely He has borne our griefs And carried our sorrows; Yet we esteemed Him stricken, Smitten by God, and afflicted. But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; We have turned, every one, to his own way; And the LORD has laid on Him the iniquity of us all. He was oppressed and He was afflicted, Yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter, And as a sheep before its shearers is silent, So He opened not His mouth. He was taken from prison and from judgment, And who will declare His generation? For He was cut off from the land of the living; For the transgressions of My people He was stricken. And they made His grave with the wicked—But with the rich at His death, Because He had done no violence, Nor was any deceit in His mouth. Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise Him; He has put Him to grief. When You make His soul an offering for sin, He shall see His seed, He shall prolong His days, And the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in His hand.(Isa 53:3-10)

      • Hey man, just know that I hear you, and probably others do too. You’re not alone, even if you’re unsure about God, believe in good people who understand your pain, just know you’re not alone friend.

    • Hi Clayton,
      I used to pray every day, God let your will be done and not mine, every day, every day. Finally, one day I was like ‘God, I have to shop and do this and do that today, how can Your will be done and not mine!’ I was frustrated. Well that day I had 3 divine appointments. The first one, to me, was the most profound, but you know how God is, it might not have been. But a lady got into an accident right in front of me and I was the only person there to stop. I got to her window to see if she was ok, which I knew she wasn’t cuz I could see her freaking out inside. All I hear her say is ‘God hates me’ over and over. Well I was there with her and helped her.

      Anyway, I’ve come to the conclusion that God gives us a lot of room to do the things we want or like, to seek them out, to find out what we are good at and when we don’t know to just ask for help and leave it at that. It may take a day or a month or a year, but the help does come. Sometimes we are like the man who was drowning saying ‘God help me’ and a boat comes by and asks to rescue him and the man says ‘no thanks, God will help me’, then a helicopter…you know the story, then he drowns and asks God why He let him drown. I am in that situation many times feeling like dumb and dumber and I have to say God I am just flesh!!! I am nothing without You.

      I am not in the best place right now either. I am in trouble. I’ve been through trauma after another after another after another. I just feel like my life is f**** BUT that’s just my bad attitude talking. We are here to bring glory to God. I ask Him and will let him, but I know sometimes I’m just in the way. I’m being a brat. I’m being ungrateful. I’m not talking about styrofoam crosses to carry. My young son died. He took his life 3 1/2 yrs ago. Crushed me to my core. I will always be scarred for life and devastatingly heart broken for him and over him. And then in our grief, someone close to us was stealing from us and lying and oh my gosh, can you imagine someone doing that to a grieving family!!!!!

      Anyway, what I’m trying to say is step out in faith, do things that you know are healthy and not something God definitely wouldn’t be His will for your life, like robbing a bank or an adulterous affair or doing drugs. Instead let God breath on your daily thoughts and creative ideas. Sometimes following one thing leads to another, leads to another and only God could have brought you there. God is speaking to us in that still small voice even when we are complaining like Elijah did.

      God help us all, to hear you, to follow, to trust, to have faith in You, prune us, chasten us, bring us through the valley of the shadow of death but allow us to experience Your great love for us. Refresh us Lord, only You can be our hope and our help. When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. In the multitude of our anxieties within us, only Your comforts delight our souls. Better one day in Your courts than thousands elsewhere. You’ve justified us by Jesus who lives forevermore to make intercession for us. We are already loved and accepted.

      Don’t be so hard on yourself. God loves us so much even when we like little children cannot understand or feel it.

      God help you, God help us all to throw off the weights that so easily entangle us. Wrong thinking, ignorance, bad attitudes, self pity (I’m talking about me!) etc etc. God please only you can change us. Help us not to get up off of the operating table before you are done!

      We are Your children and we cry out to You in our humanity, in our stubbornness. Forgive us, revive us, we know You are good no matter what. The wages of sin is death and this we see all around us in this world we live in. It’s so painful! Help us to be eternity minded because Your gift is eternal life in Jesus. Please strengthen us for the trials. Help us to love one another as you said. These things are the greatest miracles, hearts changed, love, forgiveness. I know I have to get rid of bitterness.

      Lord, I know You are faithful. Please change our hearts, one millimeter at a time if need be until we can reflect Your love and carry our afflictions like You did.

      None of us wants pain and God gave us reflexes to quickly get away from pain, but in the spirit pain can come when we do what’s right, those spiritual reflexes are different. They bend toward God’s will which causes our sinful nature pain. Our flesh doesn’t want to be honest, or kind or loving or patient. These are the fruit of the Holy Spirit of God, by whom we are sealed until the day of redemption. This is our blessed assurance. Believe it!

      Please don’t give up. God has endless spiritual resources we haven’t even tapped into yet. This I believe and know is true. I pray for all of us in this regard. I am sorry you are hurting. I’m sorry that I am hurting. Moses was despondent, Elijah, the people of Israel, Job, Jesus sweat drops of blood!

      I cried out to God for the pain of my only son dying and was reminded that God knew that pain too. I was not alone. Although it was different. I said but You are God and I am not. He said my strength is made perfect in your weakness. How I need this! How we all need this!

      One last thing, I have had tangible spiritual feelings during prayers. I’ve had no feelings and those being prayed for had the feelings, we’ve both felt it, only one felt it, no one felt it. God says it doesn’t matter. Get away from wanting a feeling. We are praying in faith…period. We pray amiss, we don’t know how to pray. What I usually pray for is the sorry state of me, my bad attitudes, my hardness of heart, etc etc. God answers those prayers FAST! I mean I’ve prayed ‘God I don’t even want my lips to pray this…’ because I didn’t want to change in that regard but i KNEW it was wrong so at least I offered up the prayer to Him. He is faithful. But as I’m going about my day and doing what I need to do, when I’m faced with the things that I have no control over and I’d like to have a good outcome, I’ll just pray a specific prayer about it. I’m asking my Father. He can say yes or no, but ultimately He’s got the best in mind for me. Jeremiah 29:11. If we ask for a fish, He’s not going to give us a stone. But we act, and I know I do unfortunately act like that’s what He’s going to do. God forgive me. God forgive us.

  9. Faith and feelings are at polar opposite ends of the spectrum. We can’t expect faith and feelings to walk hand in hand. It’s nice when it does but it is rare. We are told in scripture that the Just shall live by faith, not by their feelings. Satan is a liar and master deceiver and manipulator of our emotions. He wants us to feel forsaken by God. Even Christ at His most agonizing moment on the cross felt forsaken by God, yet He by faith committed His spirit into the Father’s hand. I have experienced long spiritual famines where the silence of God was deafening and I feared that I was forsaken by God. But then I read how He will never leave me or forsake me and by faith I lay hold of that promise in spite of my feelings. God exists whether I believe it or feel it or not. I heard some time ago that Jesus did it all, all to him I owe by His dying for my sins, and if He didn’t do another thing for me in this life he had done enough by what He did on Calvary. Jesus promised that we would have tribulations (hard times) in this life but to (by faith) be of good cheer because He has overcome this world and by extension we can also. I hate the wilderness experiences of my faith but I learn to trust in that unseen hand when I can’t feel it. Does God care when my life is hard, when it seems like my prayers go unheard. Of course He does. The story of Job is a great comfort to me as it reveals the conflict between God and Satan and unmasks the true source of suffering in this world. Even Job experienced the silence of God in the most agonizing time of his life yet he refused to throw in the towel. I am still learning to trust God in the wilderness experiences of my life and certainly don’t want to pitch my tent in the enemy’s camp. If you ever question whether or not God cares remember John 3:16,17. Look to the man on the center cross of Calvary and be saved. Things in this life won’t always make sense but someday our faith will become sight if we don’t give it up. Hang in there by faith my friends, it won’t always be this way. Shalom!

    • This was the most uplifting comment I’ve read on this billboard. I never realized how many people are really going through difficult stuff and losing faith. I’m not going through anything difficult except being discontent with job, relationships, etc. But I make good money, am in good health, have what most would consider a nice family etc. but also have felt like I’ve been losing faith. So its not based on circumstances, but more a state of mind. Feeling no connection with the Lord, or that your prayers are just like talking to the ceiling, over time leads to the idea that no one is listening, no one is there, you’re on your own. I don’t want God to DO something for me, I want to KNOW him and know that he loves me. Not by reading it in a book, but in a real spiritual sense. And that’s what’s missing, I don’t want to call it a “feeling”, but people need to feel something or experience something inside, or else it doesn’t seem real.

  10. I received Jesus in my heart and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior on July 28. However, I began having intrusive thoughts against Him and God. As time flew, I started feeling like I couldn’t care less. I know I’m a Christian, but the inside of me doesn’t sound like one. However, the Word of God surely took root in me when I started getting along with my grandparents and older brother, who has Down Syndrome. What should I do?

    • Don’t give up. Feelings fluctuated wildly at times. Keep your Christian life up todate by reading the Bible, especially the New Testament, on a regular basis, and praying. Fellowship with other Christians and take heed to God’s spirit when He speaks to you through others or the Bible. Call 1-833-678-7884 and talk with someone on our phone team. They will be happy to share with you and pray for you. They will also send you some free literature if you want them to. Prayer, Bible reading, and fellowship. Those are the practical outworking of Christianity. Read the gospels especially and take time to think about them. They describe Jesus, and will help you get to know Him better.

  11. I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior on July 28, 2019. However, my mind just started cursing towards Him. It’s been making me miserable. My grandfather said to trust in Jesus; my faith is incredibly low. I know Jesus rose from the dead.
    Last night, I just thought, “I reject the Holy Spirit”, then boom! My body just felt a release. I’m incredibly scared, sad, and incredibly numb, now. Is it too late for me? Did the Holy Spirit actually leave me? Did I commit the unpardonable sin? Am I going to Hell?

    • Hi Kayla, I sent you a reply by email. I’ll quote it here: Your question reminded me of the testimony of John Bunyan (author of Pilgrim’s Progress). He said that for several years it seemed as if the devil was sitting on his shoulder whispering blasphemous words and statements into his ear. He was quite grieved over it and thought there must be something wrong with him. I suspect that the same thing is happening to you. Take time to pray. Read the gospels. Memorize verses. Write verses on an index card and carry them with you and read them throughout the day. Sing gospel songs. Fill your heart and mind with praise to God. He has saved you but the devil doesn’t want to leave go. No I don’t believe that you have committed the unpardonable sin. If you had, you wouldn’t be concerned about it. That is simply another trick of Satan to overthrow you. Do you have Christian friends? Get together for prayer and tell them your struggles so they can pray for you. You may be surprised at what struggles they all face.

    • Faith and feelings are at polar opposite ends of the spectrum. We can’t expect faith and feelings to walk hand in hand. It’s nice when it does but it is rare. We are told in scripture that the Just shall live by faith, not by their feelings. Satan is a liar and master deceiver and manipulator of our emotions. He wants us to feel forsaken by God. Even Christ at His most agonizing moment on the cross felt forsaken by God, yet He by faith committed His spirit into the Father’s hand. I have experienced long spiritual famines where the silence of God was deafening and I feared that I was forsaken by God. But then I read how He will never leave me or forsake me and by faith I lay hold of that promise in spite of my feelings. God exists whether I believe it or feel it or not. I heard some time ago that Jesus did it all, all to him I owe by His dying for my sins, and if He didn’t do another thing for me in this life he had done enough by what He did on Calvary. Jesus promised that we would have tribulations (hard times) in this life but to (by faith) be of good cheer because He has overcome this world and by extension we can also. I hate the wilderness experiences of my faith but I learn to trust in that unseen hand when I can’t feel it. Does God care when my life is hard, when it seems like my prayers go unheard. Of course He does. The story of Job is a great comfort to me as it reveals the conflict between God and Satan and unmasks the true source of suffering in this world. Even Job experienced the silence of God in the most agonizing time of his life yet he refused to throw in the towel. I am still learning to trust God in the wilderness experiences of my life and certainly don’t want to pitch my tent in the enemy’s camp. If you ever question whether or not God cares remember John 3:16,17. Look to the man on the center cross of Calvary and be saved. Things in this life won’t always make sense but someday our faith will become sight if we don’t give it up. Hang in there by faith my friends, it won’t always be this way. Shalom!

    • Kayla! I would love to chat with you as I’ve been feeling this same way. Maybe we can seek God together, and build our faith in Him together? Let me know if you’d be interested and I’ll give you my email. ❤️

      • NOTE: be careful about giving your email address to unknown people. It is not a good idea to post a personal email address in an online forum.

  12. I dont knowv what to think any longer.

    Very confused. I have asked our lord to help me. Not sure if he has.

    Does he exist? Yes..? No….?

    I talk to him allot, yet no response.

    • God has many ways of working in us. Sometimes it seems He is silent. Sometimes He works through other people. Sometimes He says no to our requests. Other times He says wait awhile.

      • I feel so lost.

        • Ken: Have you tried calling our toll-free number? 833-678-7884 A phone team member will be happy to listen to you and pray for you.

        • I called yesterday. The person i spoke to was warm and kind. He prayed for me over the phone. How much more of this i can handle i just dont know. When does our lord decide that he has given me enough? I hear satan wispering in my ear to end my life. Once i hear him i grab my christ head and clutch it to make satan go away. I am not crazy people. I have simply had enough.

        • Hi Ken, do you have any kind of local support? A pastor you trust, or a Christian friend? It would be best for you to find someone you can related to face to face. And remember that Satan is a liar. Suicide can be very appealing, and Satan will try to persuade you that it is the answer to your problems. But it isn’t. Read the first few chapters in Genesis, where Satan persuaded Eve to eat the forbidden fruit. She gave in to his persuation and the bottom dropped out of her life. The same will happen to you if you give in to Satan’s suggestions. You can also call the National Suicide Hotline at 800-784-2433. Remember, Satan hates you and God loves you. Suicide is not a way out. It will make your life worse in every imaginable way. Feel free to call our phone team again as well. They might have some other suggestions, or might have local contact that you could get some help from. Please don’t give up.

        • Ken, if you’d like to discuss this privately by email, let me know and I’ll send you an email address you can use. I have your email, don’t post it publicly. LB

        • Perhaps it might help. Thanks

        • You should have a message from me. It will be hashed email address. Blessings.

        • My Christianity isn’t productive. I want to be a Christian with results to show for it so that my heavenly father would be glorified. I can no longer pray, study or worship. I think am spiritually dead. I want a revival and a tangible result in my Christian life. What do I do?

        • 1. ask God for faith to believe 2. repent, confess, and foresake sin 3. regularly pray and read your Bible (especially the New Testament) 4. find a Bible believing church and make yourself accountable to it. 5. Cultivate the friendship of spiritual Christians. 6. take time to memorize helpful passages from the Bible. 7. serve others around you. We are not saved by our merits or works, but Christians seldom find their way without paying attention to all of these items.

        • Our Lord does indeed answer our prayers. When we are struggling for answers, he answers us in a way that is best for us to help us be a better person. I am finding it difficult to write or say the right words, however, he is listening to us when we pray and ask for help.

          We struggle at times for a reason. Its his way of protecting us.

          Love him and Jesus always.

          Papa.

    • Hi im Anthony i lost my job un February 8 2019 my car broke down the same month really have a way to look for work went some interviews nothing happened i pray i ask God why me i still pray and kept my faith not today i got a letter saying im being evicted in 2weeks no where to go family turn their backs how can u have faith and keep praying and this is result being homeless and god not answer my prayers why should I keep believing

      • Do you think that letting go of your faith in God will make things go better? Call our toll-free number 833-678-7884 and speak with someone on our phone team.

  13. Isnt it funny. You say surround yourself with strong Christian people……they dont give a rip and dont care if you struggle or survive if your not part of their family or one of their friends. The “Christian” family is a fantasy and I have never seen it except in some shallow form no better or more pathetic than the world. The ones who are strong and blessed surrounded themselves with like minded people and friends……the weak and lost sheep dont stand much of a chance. The fatherless are not cared for but at the same time they all run around professing their love for you. It’s all like the bible describes as a cloud without rain. The western church should be ashamed.

    • Unfortunately what you say is only too true in too many churches. I would avoid the larger churches, especially the mega-churches. Smaller groups tend to have more of a family atmosphere. If you call out toll free number and talk with someone on our phone team, they will try to help you find a church that would give you the help you are looking for.

  14. When I feel like praying to God I dont feel anything anymore I just feel like I have lost hope on him and I dont know what to do because everything in my life is wrong

    • Just trust God because he have a better plan for you

    • I feel the same but most of the things that have gone wrong in my life are of my own making. I lost a long standing job in 2009 and everything else in 2016 including our home of 22 years. I am a people person, I have a big heart. I’ve given up on relationships and have secluded myself from my children and grandchildren, I don’t want to burden my family with my depression. I talk to the Lord occasionally as I feel I’m in a deep hole and can’t or don’t have the strength to pull myself out. Born and raised Catholic, I used to go to a counselor with Catholic Charities twice a month and on my way out the door after a session, he used to ask the same question, “when are you going to stop trying to save the world and save yourself”? I guess I am all used up and tired. I’ve lost all hope.

      • I can feel for you. I lost my job in 2015, after having a stroke and being diagnosed with Chrones Disease. I went through a period of depression as well after that. I understand the desire to slip into a corner and remain unnoticed. But you will never find your way out of this trap that way. Can you find a friend who understands? Do you have a doctor you trust? Is there someone at Catholic Charities who can help you make contacts to lift you out of the trap you are in? I ended up take medications, which helped a lot. My family and friends helped too. Please open the door to someone who loves you and can help you. God is real and God loves you, but God often works through human beings. If you don’t have any way to do this, call our toll free line at 833-678-7884. We have a phone team of Christians who will be happy to share with you and pray for you. Since we have people from all over the United States and even some from Canada, they may even know someone from your area that they could help you to contact. Blessings on your life today.

  15. I came here because, like many of the commenters, my faith has been waning. While I do believe that there is a higher order to how things work, for the first time in my life, I am doubting that I have any meaningful impact in them.

    I grew up as a Christian; a cold Christian. For as longer than I can remember, I’ve thanked God for all the blessings in my life. Never once have I eaten a meal without telling him I was appreciative of it, I’ve prayed regardless of whether the people around me were comfortable with it, I’ve always given money to those who needed it, and I routinely put my life on hold to help other people. I lived a generally wholesome life.

    So why a cold Christian? Because there were some aspects in my life I felt were keeping me from a close relationship with God: Jobs that weren’t quite as holy as they should be, disdain or prejudices against people, and vices that filled the emptiness in my heart. I knew these were areas I needed to improve, but nevertheless, this is how I lived for decades – trying to balance how I wanted to live with how God wanted me to live. I’ll admit, I knew this type of balance was ultimately impossible, but I just wasn’t ready to commit to anything more. I liked the way I lived, and I was very good at it with quite a bit of success to show for. Even though I could always “feel” something inside nudging me, warning me, I’ve always ignored it because I was a very happy person.

    Things began to change in 2015 as my success began to rise further and further. I found it was getting easy to make compromises in my character, unethical things were happening around me and it didn’t bother me, and I was beginning to exhibit the ungodly traits of the people I spent most of my time with. These things made me feel “cold” and “empty” inside and I didn’t want to be around them. I was scared I was going to become them. Through a series of events and choices, I ‘hit the brakes’ and allowed these things to pull away from me, but I didn’t get my happiness back. I found myself on ‘autopilot’ living life day-to-day and second-guessing the decisions that led me to this place.

    Then, two years ago, I felt two very powerful desires. Not in my heart, but more like the bottom of my stomach (if that makes any sense). These were dreams. They were dreams I found myself dwelling on day-and-night. Large dreams. Epic dreams. Dreams I desperately wanted. Dreams I could not obtain by myself. It was because of these dreams that, last year, I decided that it was time for me to give up on the things that were keeping me from a close relationship with God and put all of my effort into realizing the desires that God has put in my heart. I was excited! I was ready to embrace the world through the eyes of a new dreamer! I was ready, willing, and able for what God had in store for me! Heh, I couldn’t have imagined how wrong I was. In fact, if I knew then what my life would be now, I would have never accepted it.

    Last year, I completely flipped my life upside down in pursuit of my newfound dreams. I knew that I could only obtain them with the help of God so I began eliminating the things from my life that were keeping me away from him and I prayed and prayed for help to remove the bad things that have embraced my life for so long. I made some hard – damn hard – decisions in my life just to put me in a better position for establishing a close relationship with God. Nothing was hidden, everything was on the alter, I turned everything over to God…and I began to find my happiness again. I was eager to build my relationship with him and I let him know who appreciative I was by taking several moments daily just to sit and talk with him (even though I did all the talking). I thanked him often throughout the days for the dreams in my heart, I was careful to not allow negativity into my life and I was constantly yearning to hear his messages wherever I could find them.

    I wasn’t stupid though; I’m a realist and I knew that there would be challenges. I knew I’d have bad days and bad things would still come my way. After-all, God never promised life would be easy. But something unexpected happened – my dreams began dying.

    At first, I though maybe I was just having a really bad day, then a really bad week, maybe even a really bad month but I always had hope that the eagerness would return in the morning. When, after several months, it did not, I started to wonder if I’ve missed something. Did I anger God?

    I dwelled on that for a while. I’ve made massive improvements in my life but there are times when temptation does get the better of me. Maybe God wanted me to be perfect first? I believed that for a short while but then I realized that God made me human and he’s already accounted for every mistake I’d make. Besides, my mistakes are getting farther and farther apart, my heart is truly in the right direction, and I get back up when I fall. I made measurable progress and I felt God approved.

    Did I miss something important then? I still dwell on this because there is an ongoing fight with my mind and heart. At the very beginning of all my changes, I heard something in a message once that my minds says “applies to you” but my heart isn’t quite as accepting…or maybe it’s the other way around…I still haven’t figured it out. Anyways, It’s quite personal so I gave it to God along with a challenge. “God, if this is meant for me, then make it known to me with no doubts. Show me the right people and I will do as you ask.” Strangely, even though I felt much better after that, it still comes up in my mind every now-and-then even though I’ve seen nothing for it.

    Whatever the cause, one of my dreams is completely dead and I desperately guard what’s left of the latter one. Like a parent with a cancer-stricken child watching them die but refusing to let go while frantically looking for the smallest shred of hope to cling to. This is what I’ve been reduced to. In all of this, God has been silent. I have done so much to change myself, sacrificed everything that was important to me, and blindly put by destiny in his hands – yet, he is silent. I have given him everything in my life, and received nothing but silence.

    My dreams were good! They were Godly! They promoted his kingdom! I don’t know where I went wrong buy my life has never been as bad until I decided to follow my God given dreams and try to find a relationship with him. What kind of God does this? Dangle the carrot only to hide it after you’ve sacrificed and begin to follow him.

    I have nothing but emptiness inside now. I’ve given up all the things that mattered to me, alienated the people who, even though ungodly, provided me with solace. I have a hole in my heart because I put the things close to me on the altar and now I have nothing to fill it. I feel as though I’ve been placed in the middle of the desert and all I can do is spin in circles looking for a direction. But God is silent.

    God refuses to answer me. I’ve set the bar so low that all I want; is to know he exists, he is still on the throne, and that he still cares. Is this really too much to ask for – especially after everything I’ve done? I’m at a point I’ve never imagined myself being in – questioning whether or not God actually exists. I have nothing but a swallow of faith left.

    • ​I don’t have all the answers. But I feel it is a mistake to expect God to bless us because of all the good things we have done. Jesus explains this in Luke 17:7 – 10. We do not serve Him for what we get out of it. We serve Him because we love Him. We serve Him because He died for us. We serve Him because He is our King.

      ​I’m not accusing you of serving God for selfish reasons, but this stood out to me as I read your letter. God doesn’t owe us anything. He has gone the second mile for us and the third mile as well. In return, we need to be willing to give up our dreams and desires. The greatest thing in life is to serve Him and submit to His direction. Could it be that God is trying to tell you that in your zeal to fulfill your own dreams that you are leaving Him out of the picture?

      ​I can imagine how you are feeling by now. I’ve been there myself. But finally, with God it is the relationship that counts. We can’t bribe Him with good deeds. Instead, we need to get on our knees and say, like Jesus did in the garden of Gethsemane, “Not my will, but yours be done.”

      ​You said you give Him a few minutes a day of one-sided conversation. How about making that two sided? Read through the gospels. Read regularly, and ponder what you read. Ask Him to speak to you through your reading. Sometimes it may mean reading a chapter, other times it might only be a verse or a paragraph. Sometimes you might reread the same passage several days in a row.

      ​You seem to be able to express yourself in words, so it might be helpful to start a journal of your time with God. Wrap your life around the goal of building up a relationship with God, rather than on fulfilling your dreams. I really think that you will find your soul coming to life.

      I sent you a slightly longer answer by email.

    • Same man. But mines is different, im a Catholic, grew up in a catholic family, and 2 years ago I went to some church classes where i learned more about God. Everyday praying and thanking God. But recently one night I thought about heaven and thought “that seems so stupid” and it actually shook me a bit, I felt that i actually meant it. Its been the same ever since. I pray but I feel nothing as if im talking to myself. I pray to God but then i question if he isneven real. I ask for God to give me a sign and nothing happens. I really do need a sign right now. I’ve tried to calm myself down but i can’t. I think of heaven and it seems so fake and silly to think that there are souls up there all happy and full of joy. And it seems so fake and silly that there are souls down there being tortured and being scared and all of that. Everything right now seems so fake. When i think of God or anything related i tell myself “man that seems so silly” but somewhere deep inside i feel somewhat guilty or sad that my faith in him is fading away so fast. To the point where all I want, the one thing I want right now, is not happiness, NOTHING, but a sign, a sign that shows me that God is listening to me, a sign that he is really there. I tell myself, maybe God has put me to the test to see if my faith in him is strong. My faith before was like a bright, big fire, burning and burning with faith, never being put out. My faith was so strong that I put God above everything. But now my faith is like a small fire, a fire smaller than a candle, just waiting to be put out. All i want is a sign, im 16 years old now, i know im young, i know im not an adult yet, i know i still have sooo many years to learn more about God, but at this point it all seems so unrealistic. Why though. Why is it that, that one night that I was praying, my faith literally just almost blew out. One second im praying and I think about heaven and BAM the thought hits me saying that it seems so fake. Many of you will say pray, but once i pray i feel nothing, if i think of God i have a thought or a feeling that says he isn’t real. I need help man.

      • I’ve felt the same way, but I read of someone else who was struggling and decided to live for God anyway because it was likely that this universe did not appear by chance. Whether the Creator looks like the Catholic God or the Protestant God becomes irrelevant when you realize He created the ever-expanding universe. Worship THAT God and don’t think about heaven and hell. Do good in the world. Leave a legacy.

      • Hi Camilo,

        I went through this exactly too! So I was baptized, did communion and confirmed as a Catholic, but no one in my family knew God or directed me to God really. So I didn’t understand and was a sinner. Learned about evolution in high school and figured if that’s true, then if there is a God then He really doesn’t matter for my life. Until many many years later, I was confronted by the living God, who afterwards I realized was trying to give me ears to hear for a very long time. Now I was no longer in darkness, but translated into His marvelous light! I knew I was in communion with God and He is Jesus!! Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I never believed this really in my adult life and thought all religious people were crazy. So here I was blown away by God!! It was awesome. So I decided to find out all I could about God…I wasn’t in a church yet. So I went to the library and found a college course on video tape about the Bible. Wow, I was so stoked….until I started watching it. It was basically a professor teaching the Bible like it was just a book. He couldn’t have possibly have been a Christian the way he was talking about it. But my young baby Christian mind just got assaulted. This is demonic. Jesus teaches about the seeds being sown and the birds of the air come to snatch it away. Jesus said this is ‘the wicked one’ who we know to be satan.

        So here I was completely crushed thinking ‘oh, it’s just a book’ and ‘God is not real’ and all the lies that the enemy was throwing at my mind. Just like you are hearing all of these things.

        I felt like I was the walking dead compared to how I was when I was in communion with God, the difference was night and day. So God gives us a brain and one day, maybe a week of suffering like this, I was like, this is a no brainer (no brain required)… I compared how I was believing in God to how I was not and I realized (or an angel whispered it in my ear! seriously) that those videos were lies and I should have nothing to do with them. So I returned them to the library. I was restored to fellowship with God and just kept walking and walking and walking and never looked back….now I’ve reached some very low places emotionally and spiritually because this life HURTS LIKE HELL….well I’m sure hell is worse of course. But you know what I mean, even at 16! C’mon! Especially at 16. Please know that God IS REALITY! Jesus IS the way, the truth and the life! Either He was a liar or the lover of our souls, either He was a madman or the Son of God. Let’s face it, no crazy liar is going to heal the sick, open blind eyes and raise the DEAD! He said if you don’t believe me then just believe the works I do. Poor Jesus, having to beg people to believe Him. He heals everyone and then goes to his hometown and they are like ‘you’re nothing’ and he can’t heal NOT ONE PERSON. JESUS CAN’T HEAL ANYONE THERE. Now He is God but their unbelief barred them from the LOVE of God, His grace and mercy wanted to be lavished upon them by healing them and He couldn’t. But yet the one man came to Him and said Lord I believe, help me with my unbelief. See he wasn’t like ‘who r u Jesus, duh’, He was like ‘I being honest, my brain needs Your help because I’m doubtful’ He was probably being attacked by demons in his mind too and just imagine how fast they had to let go once he said that prayer.

        My heart goes out to you and I am confident that Jesus is faithful to finish the work He started in you!! So doubt your doubts and believe your beliefs!!! God bless YOU xoxo and honestly I am so proud of you that at 16 your are struggling with seeking God. I know God is so pleased with you. You are getting real with Him! See you on the other side one day xoxo

    • I’ve always wondered why god doesn’t speak to me the way I hear other Christians speak about it! I thought there was something wrong! Now I’m on a slow climb to finding something new! people need God! Everyone does! We need love! We need to fill the emptiness! We are alllll alike in this way! That need to me is God.

      God is in me so sometimes it’s hard to hear “him”. But you can’t hold on to what YOU believe are your dreams! You just have to trust that maybe you don’t know what He does know! It’s all you can do!

      I’ve been there before though! Living a life that I just didn’t want to trade. You can stay there forever but you’re heart will never quit searching! And that innate search in us is my proof for God.

      I think Christians put to much emphasis on faith!
      Sometimes I don’t believe! But when I do it’s like I’ve fallen in love in the largest capacity possible!

      Most people spend their lives looking for love! For that person who they are meant to be with! I luckily have found this person! But even after you find this person! The search in you for more does not quit! Some people take this as they need to move on from who they are with because they aren’t meant to Be with them! However I believe that God is the missing link in that relationship! He completes it! Because he is absolute love.

      But love doesn’t always work the way we want it to!
      Love hurts! But it’s fufilling. And we need it. We can turn away from it as much as we want but it’s only keeps hurting us more and more.

      Belief is all we can strive for. Because it brings hope! It makes those days easier! If you just believe that maybe there is something bigger at hand that you just don’t understand. And just ask “God” to carry you through it!

      I just recently started doing this again! And there is a peace in my heart that wasn’t there before.

      I recently lost my dog, he got let out by a worker when I was not home! He was my best friend and I couldn’t understand how God could let this happen! If there is a God!
      But I turned to him, and the faith that everything is okay and will be okay actually led me back to him!

      Through this experience I’ve met so many loving people who truly care about me finding my dog!
      At a time in my life where I felt so distant from humanity! I didn’t have faith in people. I didn’t feel like I could connect to them.
      Through this experience I have seen the love that humans have the capacity for! And why do they have love? Because they too have experienced tragedy!

      this terrible thing as opened my eyes! And even though they’re not completely open! I feel like I can see farther than I used to be able to.

      I don’t have my dog back but I’ll just keep believing that this is all for a reason.
      And hope that he does come back
      Even if all of this is onset craziness to cope! I feel alive! Even more alive than I did before I lost him.

    • WOW! You eloquently described exactly how I am feeling right now….I have had to fight for faith for many reasons that I had no power over…No matter what happened in my life, good or bad, I always “thanked God” for what I was going through…I am 56 years old, not a child, and all I know to say is God has taken away everything and anyone that I have loved the most. Not just money, but homes, love, health, and even children. What amazes me the most, is that I have been a Steadfast believer no matter what, and my reward is nothing but more pain. The last incident in my life happened today, and it is the straw that broke the camels back. I realize that it is useless to pray anymore, it is useless to read the Bible anymore, it is useless to believe anything other than life is going to happen to me and no matter what I do or say, it is just going to happen. How sad to believe in a God after all the promises that the Bible says happens to believers, only to have the gifts of a life the very opposite of all the promises the Bible makes. I will nolonger cry out to God, as God has put more on me than I can stand, even though He promised He would not do that…Life just goes from bad to worse….I’m tired of it after almost 60 years….That’s long enough….

      • I’m not sure what promises that you feel God is not fulfilling for you. The warning in the New Testatment is clear. Living for Jesus will not be easy. Paul was beheaded. Peter was crucified. John was thrown into a vat of boiling oil. Thomas was executed by archers. Some Christians were thrown from cliffs, some were flayed alive, some were burned alive, some were pulled apart by horses, some were thrown to hungry lions, some were sawn into pieces. Jesus said, I am not come to bring peace but a sword. He also said that those who live godly lives will suffer persecution. Too often we deceive ourselves into believing that we have done so much for Him that we deserve a life of ease and comfort. But that isn’t what the Christian life is all about. We don’t live for Jesus for what we can get out of it. We live for Him because he is the Lord of our lives. We need to have a vision of the kingdom of God that goes far beyond ourselves and our desires. Get a copy of the book “Hinds Feet in High Places” and read it. Its an allegory and it isn’t perfect, but I have read it a number of times and it very vividly describes what I have been saying here. Blessings — LB

  16. I believe in God and can feel his presence but my faith rides on pendulum. My prayers go unanswered, though sometimes they are also answered but the intensity is very less. I have found whenever I dream of something – success in education, career, love and all other aspects I have found my prayers go unanswered as I couldn’t realize any of my dreams so far. Things do happen but I won’t say they are the success I have thought of – a miniature version of all I can say.

    For example I didn’t get a job after my under graduation in Engineering, after couple of years I got an offer at a very big MNC but that doesn’t mean I have been a successful Software Engineer in my job as payslips aren’t fat.

    Another example, before getting job I did my graduation (Master’s in Engineering)under scholarship. Here is another story. I always wanted to pursue higher studies so I wanted to pursue Master’s after Bachelor’s and for that there is an entrance exam in our country. I gave the exam and qualified it during my Bachelor’s but those marks weren’t enough to get into top institutes of our country, so I sat at home and prepared for a year but next time I couldn’t qualify even, forget about getting good scores. However with previous year’s score I could get into one of prestigious institutes under scholarship but yes I couldn’t enter into those dream places.

    Now during Master’s I studied well and really loved the research I did for few months, prepared mathematical model and in the end I thought I had a successful project under my belt though I didn’t write up in any journal as it needs more time to write a one. My love for research has made me realized that careers of Professor and researcher would satiate me. I really love teaching (I used to give couple of tuition during Master’s) and researching on new concepts, and do brain storming for it. However when I applied for PhD positions(in my country) I didn’t get a chance (I appeared for 2 institutes only, I couldn’t attend the rest as there were many call letters for interview )So again I couldn’t utilize the chances of doing something that is dream.

    In fact I got so dejected that I thought to look for jobs. In the mean time I got an opportunity of Software Engineer at a big MNC. After working for couple of years, I started to think that I need to get back into academics because I really love Physics, Chemistry and Mathematics and I think I have good imaginations and want to discover or innovate something new that would help mankind. So while doing job I gave my GRE and TOEFL and in the mean time conveyed my interest to some Professors of renowned Universities, abroad. I thought getting some replies from Professors meant I would be getting a PhD position fully funded one. But now I am mostly getting rejections. Recently I have got chance for MS program at one University abroad which is good yet with no funding.

    Now what should I do, I am a matured individual(29 plus)- at my age women get settled with someone and career as well whereas I am gearing up for some loan and use my savings to fund a new Master’s (next thing is to get Visa)? I ask God why you don’t pay any heed to me and my dreams, for my dreams are actually crafted by You ? Am I an useless creature ? Am I too bad ? Why my dream don’t materialize ?
    I haven’t done bad to others I try not to, I don’t hurt others, I respect all yet there are others who hurt me, crush me, demean me. What hurts me more when I see God crushes me.

    I feel happy when I find his blessing but I really can’t see it now resulting in failure which I don’t want every time to happen . My dream – I would like to be guided by Him to explore Life acquiring wisdom through academics and spiritual quest, spread wisdom in academics and discover something to help mankind.

    • @PB I’m curious why you think that God is responsible to fulfill your dreams? Most people have dreams and end up going with reality instead. It seems to me as I read your note that God has done very well by you — better than a lot of people have experienced. It is easy to mistake our own desires for being God’s direction. Many people have discovered that it is impossible to start at the top. It often works better to start where you can and then work your way up through the chain from there. I would also encourage you not to try to put God no a guilt trip. In Psalms 106, the writer recounts the apostasy of the Israelites in the wilderness. The Israelites were tired of the manna God sent them and they wanted meat. They stood in the doorways of their tents weeping. In Psalms 106:15 it says that “He gave them their request, but sent leanness into their soul.”

      • @PB The teachings of Christ and the Bible do not correlate with the teachings of Hindu sages and philosophers, etc. I would advise you get away from them and learn the ways of Jesus from the New Testament. I won’t post your next post, partly because of its length but also because I believe that it isn’t Christ centered teaching. Blessings on you as you continue to search for truth. –LB

  17. I have to admit as of recently I have been questioning to myself God and my relationship with him.had a bad divorce,lost my grandmother in ’12,lost my aunt in ’13,lost my mother in ’16, almost lost my life in ’17, my new wife and I work hard everyday and dont spend money on nonsense, yet still struggling hard, and to make matters worse, my ex wife not only hides my 10 year old son from me but continues to tell him I don’t love him, she back stabs every single person in her life, won’t even let her own father (much less mine and my family) see my son, and yet she continues to be blessed for being a dirty, disgusting human being while I’m working hard to take care of myself and others, and yet, I keep catching hell, I been praying hard to God, but it just seems he doesn’t hear or care,I still pray and believe, just don’t know what to do anymore.

    • Life can get tough and often does. But God doesn’t necessarily promise to change that for us. Instead He promises to give us strength to survive the tough times.

      • And when God DOESN’T give you the strength to survive, what is your answer? Do you realize how many believers commit suicide because they believed in God so much that they felt hopeless when He didn’t answer them…I’m not talking about answering their prayers per say, I’m talking about filling them with enough of the holy spirit that they at least had a thread to hold onto instead of killing themselves…..

        • I don’t have all the answers to such questions. I do know of several Christian men who committed suicide, the one suffered from serious delusions and the other from servious depression. I also know several men who wanted to commit suicide but God stopped them from doing so. I’ve seen and heard some pat answers from people who apparently haven’t been through the fire but seemed to feel they had all the answers in spite of that. The devil can come up with some very reasonable sounding reasons for committing suicide. He makes it more palatable by suggesting that it is all God’s fault. If you or someone you know is considering suicide, GET HELP IMMEDIATELY. Go to a pastor or counsellor. Call a suicide hotline. Talk to a mature friend. IGNORE THE DEVIL’S REASONING AND GET HELP.

  18. Lately I’ve been feeling myself drifting more and more away from my faith. I feel like God is punishing me. The past 2 years have been so horrible and I just want to see the light finally. April 2017, I lost my mother, June 2017 I found out my husband was cheating on me and then he left me and our 3 kids behind, July 2017 my father in law passed away, August 2017 my grandfather passed away, February 2018 my uncle passed away, and then August 2019 my father passed away (I grew up known as a Daddy’s Girl). Now I’m in a relationship where my boyfriend is controlling and talks down to me but I can’t seem to end it. I feel like everything good was ever taken from me and that nothing good will ever happen to me. I’m not destined for it. I have prayed my hurt to God so many times and I sit and read the Bible but I’m still not able to put my faith back into him. I never do anything wrong and I always do right by people. What am I doing wrong? I need help getting my faith back!

    • @Jennifer I’m sorry that you have gone through so many hard times in life. I don’t believe that God allows such things to happen to punish us. In this life people die. That is because of sin. But we shouldn’t read things into it as if God were being vindictive. God loves us, but His perspective on things isn’t the same as ours. Someday we will understand.

      • My Mom is the strongest woman I know ..My Dad the is the strongest man I know . For way to long now , My Mom has been suffering with one thing after another preventing Doctors from getting to the most crucial issues . …its a continuous battle . I’m angry at God for putting My Mom through all these health issues, as he has already given her a life of challenges in other ways . My Mom doesn’t deserves this at all ….My Dad either . My Mom is wonderful and selfless , its just not fair . I’m furious . Seeing My Mom go through this , My Dad toi is killing me slowly.As,far as I’m concerned my dreams are being crushed . .All I ever wanted was to retire and spend the next 15 years or more with both My Parents . That is my dream .Not much to ask is it . God doesn’t seem to want to make any of that dream easy on us . My whole family is devestated.
        We pray hard and ask others to as well . We pray for others,also .I’m mad as hell .
        GOD PLEASE LISTEN TO OUR CRIES FOR POSTIVE HEALING , HEALTH AND DECADES OF LIFE HERE ON EARTH WITH OUR MOM AND OUR DAD.
        AMEN

        • I know these things are tough to face. But God has never promised to give us an easy life here on earth. He HAS promised to be with us and give us strength to face what life brings. These situations are the result of living in a broken, sinful, world. I would suggest that you try to hear what God is telling you through all of this, and accept His offer of help. Unfortunately, I hear this so often–my dreams are being shattered. But God has never promised to fulfill our dreams. He has promised us strength for each day, and you need to look at life from that perspective. LB

    • @ Jennifer….your not alone. I was getting my bachelors in History and Bible theology. My wife was going to school to be a nurse. She had classes late and gradually started not coming home until early mornings, claiming she was studying late and fell asleep at friends place. While I was fixing my kids supper and tucking them in each night. I was so blind and trusting of her and I feel stupid. My oldest daughter told me she saw her mom texting I love you to him. Once I found out she refused counseling. Moved out with the kids and filed divorce. I adopted her two children from a previous marriage. We had one other daughter together. I don’t even bother seeing my kids anymore. I saw them twice last year but they don’t seem to miss me and they are happy so I leave it alone and accept it. I have asked her back to try to reconcile now for 2 years. To remain a family for the kids. I always believed God, forgiveness and love was the answer. But instead my Christian wife hates me and doesn’t even care Im not in her life anymore. She is with a hindu man non- Christian. This is not what the Bible teaches yet she did it and still goes to Church. Says she is happy and that’s all that matters. I just don’t get her. I question everything now. I was in the suicide clinic for a week once. dropped out of school.

      • @Kevin. Don’t let someone else’s sins turn you against God. Someday we will all stand before God to give and account for the deeds we have done. That moment will determine our destiny. Anyone can say they are Christian, but God knows who is and who isn’t. My encouragement to you is, be one of those who is a Christian.

      • I came to faith in October 2016 and since, my life has been horribly worse than when I wasn’t with Him.

        • I have a close friend who has cancer and is taking chemo for it. He feels worse than he has ever felt in his life. But that is what it takes sometimes to get where we want to go. He lives with it because he knows that his life depends on it, and he has a reasonable expectation of things changing. Look at your life that way.

  19. I have a lot of loss in the last year. I have lost my mom, my beloved wolf dog of 15 years, and recently, my fiancé of the past 5 years. I don’t blame anyone for this as the loss of my fiancé was partially my fault. I have felt empty. The only thing that has kept me going was my two dogs. I know that I am a sinner, but I have asked God for help, confessing my sins to him. I am pretty low right now and felt uncomfortable calling your number and talking to a stranger. Don’t know what to do.

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  21. I have been struggling with doubt about God for a long time. I have been going through something for close to thirty years and I just recently found the name for it and it is called scrupulosity. All these years I have prayed and prayed crying my eyes out for God to help me and take this away from me and I never had any results. Having scrupulously is a living hell and no one hardly knows about it. No one I talk to can help and I even been on meds but nothing changes. I have sever OCD and scrupulosity is one of them and I’m depressed and and lonely and just don’t want to be here anymore. I’m very tired. Since 2011 my Momma has been going through cancer. God healed her the first time of cancer or so I thought cause about two years later it had come back and had spread everywhere. Momma found out December 24,2013 the cancer was back throughout her body. Momma fought cancer from then to March 5,2018 when she passed away. We all prayed for her all the time and our church did too even standing in front of church with people laying hands on her praying for healing but it didn’t happen. So I have had doubts about God being real and everything I have been taught over the years but now it’s like I don’t believe in God at all. He had never healed me from my daily torment with scrupulosity and he didn’t heal my Momma from cancer. I never feel him and never see any changes in my life except for losing all my faith. I needed my Momma here with me cause she was the only one I could talk to and tell about all the terrible thoughts and everything going on with me. Momma was there for me for anything. I’m 44 and I feel like a 5 year old that lost his Momma. When I try to talk to someone about how I feel that I don’t think I believe in God anymore they say, so you think your Momma was lying all these years she live for the Lord and that makes me angry cause my Mom did not ever lie. My Mom promised me two things in her life that God was real and she loved me with all her heart. It’s hard for me to believe God is real anymore because I never see prayers answered and I never feel his presence. So even though she promised me God is real it’s still hard for me to believe that now. There’s so many things in this world people believe in so how do you know who’s right or if anybody is. I may be rambling to much but I really don’t know what to do. If I’m wrong and die then there will be my eternity in hell which I do not want to happen but how can I believe in God again if I do not EVER feel him or see proof. You have to believe in God with all your heart to be saved right,so let’s say I might believe 2% that he may be real that’s not going save me. What gets me is how scared and terrified I have always been that I would not make it to heaven from something I had done or said especially with the scrupulosity and now since Mom is gone I just don’t think all of this is really true. I don’t pray or anything anymore. Please anyone help if you can to get me to see if God is real.

    • @Michael, I am not an expert in OCD or its various forms. But I do believe like your Mother apparently did that God is real and that God loves you. However, God makes His own choices and we cannot manipulate Him or put Him on a guilt trip to force Him to do what we want Him to do. When Job faced these questions (see book of Job in the Old Testament), he finally realized that God is so great that he (Job) couldn’t judge God for what He did, even though he didn’t understand why God did them or allowed them. That is why the New Testament teaches us to pray for God’s will to be done. Even Jesus faced this. In the garden of Gethsemane Jesus was staring death in the face, and He begged God to take it away. In Matthew 26:39 He prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.” We always need to give God the right to say “no” to our prayers, because God understands our situation much better than we do. You may need to seek professional help for your condition, but I would also encourage you to seek out Christian friends to help you. Read the Gospels in the New Testament as well. This will help you to understand Jesus and the love He has for you. Also feel free to call our toll-free number. Someone will be glad to share with you and pray for you. 1-855-367-8788. God bless you today.

    • It sounds to me like you are seeking proof. Unfortunately that is not how religion works. Religion wants you to live by faith. I was brought up like you to believe in God and have never really been sure myself. I am envious of those who can have blind faith and not question what they are told. Sorry that I cant help you but know you are not alone in these thoughts

      • I don’t care for the word religion. Being a child of God is a relationship, not a religion and certainly not a blind faith.

        • Sounds like you took “blind faith” the wrong way. I don’t mean it as a bad thing. It is not possible for you to completely understand God and it is not meant for you to. So, yes your faith is blind and that is a good thing.

        • My apologies Jason. I totally agree.

  22. Marie Stephane Johnson

    For a while I have been on the verge of giving up. I used to be the first to say God use me as your vessel and spread your word of love and comfort but lately trying times and sorrow have led me to understanding that God does not care about anything that we have put on ourselves.
    I am at the point that I’m asking what is next? Who is next? And yet I still hear his voice asking me to put my trust in him. Pray for me

    • @Marie Trying times and sorrow are part of being a human living in a broken world. Sin has taken a perfect world and turned it into what it is. God will often allow sin to take its natural course. This doesn’t mean that he doesn’t care for us. He will walk with us and give us strength. Remember Job? He said, even thought He [God] slay me, I will trust him. That’s my encouragement to you. Trust God.

  23. I was the strong believer, saw God move in my and others peoples life. Married a man who i belived loved the Lord too. However that man was a narcissist and after i didn’t stroke his ego or fit his idea of perfection anymore, he emotionally abused for years and had me convinced that i was the horrible one. He constantly threatened to leave me and that my actions were the reasons he didn’t love me anymore. The whole time the abuse was going on I prayed to the Lord to save our marriage. Also, since my now ex-husband had stopped believing in god and was involved with spiritualism and communing with ghosts and energy, I prayed that God would send someone other than me to calm him out and bring him back to God, if not for me but for my two children. Once the ex finally decided he was ready to divorce me ( after i supported him through college and drained our savings for his whims) because i was mentally broken and suicidal and he didn’t want to deal with taking care of me, he convinced me to give up my rights to my children until i was better. He promised to give me joint custody once i was better which has never happened. All this time i prayed and trusted God, i tithed, i was involved in church, I prayed, i tried to do the best i could to be a true believer. But one financial issues after another, being without my kids for 9.5 months of the year ( i get them for summer and christmas breaks) and watching the ex who doesn’t believe in God, be able to buy a house, get a massive inheritance (while i still pay off debt from the divorce), cracks started to erode my faith. And now i have an amazing boyfriend who cares for me in a way i didn’t know was possible, who is way more “Christ-like” than my ex was, but who is an athiest. I know the bible says you are suppose to be equally yoked, and that i should end the relationship, but i don’t understand how a loving God could constantly want me to give up the good in my life for him and that who constantly lets trouble to come into my life and lets things happen to me when i’ve begged, pleaded, cried out for deliverance. Told him i could handle anymore tests of my faith and that i need some blessings. Good didn’t come to me until i stopped being a “faithful one”

    • @Anna: I think the key phrase in your comment is “I don’t understand…” This is often the case. As a human being, my perspective is different from God’s perspective. But if we can trust God enough to say, “I don’t understand, but I still trust you…” it will make a difference. It might not change our circumstances, but it will change how we handle them. –LB

  24. I’m done!!!!!!!!
    I’ve served God with all my heart for years!!!!’
    All I’ve had in my life has been disappointments.

    I was a missionary, I’m a great mom, granny. But trials keep coming.
    I keep praying!
    Believing, hoping. To no avail. What car n I do ? Why is God forsaken me?
    I love him. But Now I wonder, is this is all a lie! 😭😭

    • @Lillian… When Jesus hung dying on the cross, He cried out in His humanity, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Sometimes in our humanity, we do the same. I think God understands that. I can’t explain why God puts us through trying times, but I do know that what God allows in our lives will always make us better people if we let it. The devil, of course, tries to tell us that these “bad” things mean that God doesn’t care, that He doesn’t love us, and that He’s only taking advantage of us. We don’t have to listen to Satan’s insinuations, but too often we do. Don’t let Satan win the battle for your soul. Read the book of Job, especially the last five or six chapters, when God finally breaks His silence and talks to Job. Note Job’s reaction. We serve the same God Job served. Like Job we can say, “Even if he slays me, I will trust Him.” I answered you on our chat line as well. You can email me by replying to that email. Or call our toll free number at 1-855-367-8788 [855 FOR TRUTH].

    • Lillian it may all be a deception. Try life without praying or any of that stuff. It seems that bad things come whether you pray or believe so just go through life as though you are alone because I think we are.

      • But the Christian is never alone. God has never promised us life without sorrow and pain. He just promises us grace and strength to live for Him inspite of it.

  25. justanotherdrunk Jan 16, 1992

    Donna,

    Thanks for your post it makes me feel better/ less bad about myself because I’m selfish/ self-centered and it’s always about me!

    I’m curious, do you have anything good in your life?

  26. I still believe in creator God because the wonder of His magnificent earth is undeniable. But I no longer believe in a God who loves me. In fact all evidence points out He hates me more than He hates the devil. I don’t even know if the devil and God are separate anymore. I think maybe Satin is on God’s payroll so He can have a scapegoat for all the evil and neglect He enjoys. I have served God devoutly all my life and He has denied me 100% of my simple dreams and given me 100% of my nightmares. It is point by point extremely personal ti my specific soul on things I have never even spoken out loud to anybody. I have nothing and no one and about to lose my home as I just lost my 4th job of the year (through no fault of my own; it is always preventable injustice). God is always on my enemies side and never on mine. I always lose no matter how earnest and how long I pray. No matter how good I am or how hard I work and obey, or how evil the injustice. I am invisible to any and all kindness or humanity. I believed all my life that if I ever really needed God He would show up for me. He won’t. And I can’t even type the worst of it. He has lied to me all my life. He is not on my side, not ever. He doesn’t care one bit what happens to me. He delights in my terror and suffering. I was always taught He cares – He wants to heal our wounds – He is a deliverer. Nothing could be further from the truth. I feel like the church is nothing more than a lying machine to rope hurting children in to promise them a bunch of empty lies that were never true. I still believe in heaven but I can’t say why I do. He has fully lied about every other promise written down in the bible. He doesn’t defend, protect, or help His children or His supposed values. As far as I can tell the whole thing is a scam just to suck up praise (and money) from stupid people who trusted Him. I might as well worship one of those false Gods. It’s the same difference. And it’s not just me. This is the experience of the vast majority of faithful Christians. We are nothing more than chattel to Him. Lives to play with just like that Star Trek episode with the Greek gods. I can no longer pray or go to church because I am SICK of the grinning liars who think lying to people is glorifying God. It is not. I don’t think I will ever respect Him again. He’s just one more liar and betrayer Who stands for nothing He says He does. Do as I say not as I do. Funny how I thought I had hatred of liars in common with God but no. That’s just another lie.

    • Thanks for sharing your feelings, Donna. I’m sorry you feel that way about God. Did you know that Job shared many of your feelings about life? But he also said, about God, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.” [See Job 13:15] In spite of your feelings, God loves you. He loves you so much that He sent His Son to die for you.

      • He sent His Son to die for all humanity. And although I am very grateful, it wasn’t personal. To answer my prayers about my specific needs that would be personal only for me alone.

        • Yes it was personal, because he already knew you, before he formed you in your mothers womb. He knew you before even the earth was born.

  27. I truly don’t know where to start. Even thou I believe God is real, I see that my faith in him is hanging by a thread. I see that my prayers doesn’t matter to Him. God does say to pray without ceasing but what He also should said is – That He will answer if He feel like it. In Job it says God let Satan destroy Job’s life. This was to test his faith? What loving father permit someone to harm they child? As much as I don’t want to believe that God can be cruel, my trust in Him is starting to be slim to none. And I truly believe that God blesses who he want to bless and He lets all the rest suffer. Why? That’s truly not LOVE! Romans 9: 18 Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.

    • Hi Sondra, and thanks for sharing. I’m sorry for the struggles you are going through. I view both of these illustrations a little differently than you do, though I understand where you are coming from. In a sense, perhaps, God was testing Job’s faith by allowing Satan to test Job. But it seems to me that God had so much confidence in Job that he allowed this to happen. We don’t understand God’s ways, but the whole point of the book of Job is that God is so great that we can trust him even if we don’t understand. As far as Romans 9 goes, note that Paul used Pharaoh as an illustration of what he was speaking of. God doesn’t harden people’s hearts unless they have hardened themselves in outright rebellion against Him. Even in such a situation God often shows an amazing amount of long-suffering.

  28. RYAN DANIEL COOPER

    I believe there is a Christian God, but I know longer believe we are all saved. I personally do not see a place in heaven for myself and fully do not expect one. I hurt the woman God gave me. I did not have a physical affair but had an emotional one which I have cometo learn is just as bad. I can list the excuses to as why but I in a moment of feeling lonily and depressed I decided to turn to my own desires rather than turn to God. See my marriage had no issues prior to this occuring we wrre happy. In fact trying to have another child just a few months before. I did everything God expected of me when my wife found out, I took accountability I dropped to my knees in prayer and I begged for forgiveness. I tried everything in my power to work things out with her with no avail. A short 6 months after the issue began I found my self in court the day after my 7th wedding anniversary crying hysterically as a judge ordered me to sign the divorce decree. A few months later another woman came into my life, she know manythings about me most do not. Everything my from issues as a child to even my mistakes in my marriage. She has accepted me for who and I am and what i want to be. And likewise she has shared alot with me as well. While I feel strongly connected to her and that God did put her in my life. I am unable to overcome the extreme guilt and shame of failing in my marriage. I admit my wife was not perfect and was not willing to admit thise imperfections she put it all on me and while she also had an emotional affair a few years ago herself, i still feel as spiritual leader of the household my duty as seen by God I failed temendously. I truely believe in my heart I do not deserve entry to through the gates. I know people have done far worst than me is the arguement many will present. But I feel it in my heart that I am unsavable. I know people will say thats not what the teachings say that we are all sinfull. But the more and more I have prayed and try to understand this all the more I realize I am not savable. My wife who brought me to god and to the church who has string faith could not even find the stregnth to forgive me. I know people think I am just hurting right now saying this, but it has something I have been praying about and discussing with spirtual leaders for months now and I truely believe this is where I am at and going to remain.

    • Ryan, my heart goes out to you. You are going through a very hard time in life. But I don’t feel that you are unsaveable. The grief in your heart is evidence that God is still calling you to Him. Don’t turn your back on Him.

  29. I am a Catholic female and I had a strong belief in God our father but over time I have begun to lose my faith in human nature and in God. I don’t understand why I feel like this. I do still believe in God but I do not feel him in my heart or in my life. I feel very lonely and I don’t know what to do about it. I want to feel better about my life and the way I feel about myself and God. Can anyone give or offer any help or advice. I feel desperate at times and very sad about my life.

    • Hi Joyce. Thanks for sharing your struggles. This happens sometimes because we get our eyes off God and onto men (or women). Humans will always fail us sooner or later and if we are dependent on them, we will crash with them. Have you read the Gospels? Reading them will help you to get your eyes back on Jesus. Find some Christian friends that you can share with and pray with. If you would like, please call our toll free number and share with our phone team. Someone will be happy to pray with you and help you to find Christian fellowship. The number is 855-367-8788.

  30. Married for 16 years to what I thought was the most perfect husband. We are now getting divorced due to his indisgressions. I am 50 years old and have nothing. I have no where to go. I have no hope and have no faith anymore. I am lost and have nothing. I don’t know how to get back. I prayed and prayed for this not to happen. Please don’t tell me to pray to a God that doesn’t hear me.

    • Hi Cathy. Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry that you have faced these sorrows in your life. Sin so often harms innocent people. But remember that these things are the result of sin, not because God doesn’t hear you. Do you have a Christian friend you could share with? If not, feel free to call our phone team at 855-367-8788. The number is toll free and they will be glad to pray with you and help you to find a way forward. Have you read the Gospels? Try reading them and see what Jesus is really like. And remember, no matter how tough life seems to get, God still loves you.

  31. Ineedgodandjesuseveryoneprayforme

    Hi I’m 26 years old female and I used to have such a close relationship with god and it’s like for over a year now I lost it I still believe in god it’s just that like I don’t talk to him no more nor do I want to pray like I question is he really here with me? I been through so much hell in these two years I can’t bear it anymore I lost the man I love my ex husband I lost all my family friends nobody talks to me or wants anything to do with me my father died when I was a little girl and now it’s like just as good as my mother is gone to Bcuz she don’t have nothing to do with me doesn’t want to help me or have any part of me I am homeless I have no home to go to I have no money I’m having a baby n all these bad chain of events keep happening in my life and won’t end Where is god why am I suffering when will this end when will I believe in him the way I used to I don’t know what to do I cry to god and Jesus to take me to heaven I can’t Do life anymore with this hurt sorrow and pain but god won’t take me I just continue to suffer why😭😭🙏🏻💔

    • Hi, and thanks for sharing you hurt with us. God often doesn’t share with us “why” he does things or why he allows them. In the book of Job you see this illustrated. Job asked why, why, why over and over again. God’s answer seems to have been, I am so great that you can trust me even if you don’t know why. That isn’t an easy answer when you are going through the valley, I know. But sometimes all we can do is trust. Do you have any Christian friends to share your struggles with? If not, try calling our toll free number and sharing with one of our phone team members? They might be able to help you find someone who could stand with you during your time of trial. The number is 855-367-8788

  32. I have come to a point in my life that as I look back at all my struggling things keep getting worst no matter how hard I try and pray I look at life in a blank state of being and from a child until now I wonder when will my living stop being in vain.

    • Hi Leo and thanks for sharing. Have you tried reading the Gospels to get a glimpse of who Jesus really is? Jesus said, “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Mat 11:28-30)

  33. See this link to our inspiration blog.

    James Baer’s inspiration for the week sheds some light on this subject that you might find helpful. –LB

  34. I have addiction with gambling and this has lead me into huge dept and now depression,and in my attempt to solve this issue I tried becoming a committed Christian but day in day out the people I owe chase after me and I am in a serious depression. I have lost faith in God. Because my issue are still there.

    • God doesn’t promise that he will bail us out of our problems. Rather he helps us to live with our problems. This is especially true if our problems are the result of our sin or bad decisions. But if we commit our lives to him, our past mistakes don’t need to drive us away from him. Could you get some financial counselling to help you to budget paying back your debts? Or get a consolidation loan, to satisfy your debtors?

  35. I have been going through a lot lately and it feels like it has been one thing after another. What do you do when you feel like God isn’t listening.

    • Have you lost track of God somehow? Sometimes we need to go back and face the issue that seemed to be the start of the problem. There are times that God waits a while to answer, but He always hears us. So if you don’t know of any reason God might be trying to get your attention by his silence, maybe wait a little to find out what he has in mind. Blessings to you, today.

  36. If only Job had Jesus!
    The old testament is all Job had and God called Job “blameless and upright” & “no one on earth like him”. WoW! He saw destruction like no other patriarch.
    Jesus said “Enter through the narrow gate.”
    That narrow gate is the New Testament (narrower in size than Old Testament).
    Awesome creator!

    • Interesting thoughts. Job is often thought to be the oldest book of the Old Testament, so it is quite possible that he didn’t have access to any of the written words of God.

  37. Hi… I don’t really know where do I have to start. Ya I lose my faith. In my life I face a lot of challenges but I feel God’s presence in all circumstances & He (God) always be my strength. But now I can’t things are get more difficult & become worst. Of course I was categorized under gentel Christian. My life is mess up. I don’t only ask God to figure out things firstly I ask Him ‘dont ever hid your face from me & don’t let me down.’ However now I’m just give up because God let me. My be he also give up on me or….. I don’t know. As far as I can I was depart from world to obey His law. My I deserve this? During all this gap I fail & I did same misteks. Dear God please help me cos you are the only who can safe me(same part my heat have this pray). I can’t pray, worships, read Bible… I miss Him also!

    • God is always there for us, if we are willing to take His way in life. He will not turn His back on us. Try to find some good Christian friends who can help you to find your way back to Him.

      • let god speak for himself. Never mind all the defensive quotes about what he is interested in doing. These quotes mean nothing when you pray and see nothing happen. A personal relationship with god should have god responding to questions asked to him.

        • God will speak for himself if you let him. Have you spent time listening for his voice? A lot times he will speak through the Bible, especially the New Testament. Maybe try reading the Gospel of Matthew and see what Jesus is all about.

  38. I have been a believer in God all my life. Im not a religious prayer but I do know in my heart that I believe in God and I pray to Him whenever there are things happening in my life that I have no control of and If there are things that happened that I should be thankful for.Until many unfortunate things suddenly happened in my life all at the same time, I’ve been married for 4 years and prayed several times for a miracle baby. I have been diagnosed with PCOS( Polycistic Ovarian Syndrome). He didn’t answer my prayers, I said to my self, maybe He has better plans for me. Then my husband had to work overseas, I sacrificed my job and followed him. Now I ended up hiding in a room in his shared accommodation because we don’t have enough money to rent a place. I am unemployed, no money of my own, sick, depressed and questioning why God did this to me, have I been a terrible person? Do I deserve this?
    I ask Him why do I see the people who have hurt me succeeding in their lives and me who they hurt is here feeling worthless and alone. Is God really fair?
    I always say to my friends who are in need of advice that God is good and God is fair. He sees us all equally, but now, Im no longer sure.
    I stopped praying to Him but there was still a small bit of faith in my heart hoping that after my tearful and sleepless nights, things will be better . But again, His answer is NO. It’s like every week, He gives me more reason to question my faith and to feel like I am carrying a big rock that I can no longer carry.
    If God is really good, why does He allow meto suffer like this? Why does He let my faith be shaken to the point of no longer believing? I feel like He makes me believe in Him through the words in the bible and then He destroys that faith with circumstances just when I have all the faith I thought we have.
    I still hope for things to be better, and if it gets better, I think it’s just meant to be better not because God has answered my prayers.

    • I feel for your hurt, my friend. But remember that God didn’t promise to give us an easy life. He did promise, however, that He would be with us and give us grace and strength so that we could survive the hard times. He invites us to share our struggles with him and he will give us rest. That is a tremendous miracle. People have found that rest in dungeons and while facing execution. The evil circumstances of life are caused by the sinfulness of mankind, not by God. The devil would have us blame God for it, but God wants to help us through these times. –LB

  39. i have lost my faith. i tried to read the bible and pray. i am getting no were. i meet Jesus on my 20’s and i loved him so much. I was a teacher for over 14 years. Jesus sent me my wife when i was going to college. She was a ministers daughter. We had 4 beautiful daughters. together. i was in an auto accident I was out of work for 2 years. during that time i went back to college and finish my degree in teaching. on new years eve, i walked in on my wife having a affair with my brother-in-law. on the living room floor. i tried to work it out for 4 years. but, trust was gone. the marriage end. i went to church and prayed for 3 days and 3 nights. God did not answer. my daughters would come over on the weekends, summer, some holidays. one night my oldest daughter did not want to go home. i called my ex-wife and told her what was going on and ask if i can keep her for a few more days so i could talk to her and find out what was going on. my ex-wife told me, No. when i dropped off my daughters my daughters was screaming. my ex-wife called her father (minister) and told him that my oldest daughter was processed with a demon and she needs to be delivered. The next time my daughters came over. They went to the neighbors to play. about a 1 hour later. the neighbor came over and told me what my daughters to told her. My 4 daughter was being raped and molested by my ex-wife boyfriend and it been going on for over a 1 year. I called CPS. they came and took my daughters for an interview. They brought back the next day. i got into my car and i was heading over to kill this man. but a friend stop me. CPS told my ex-wife what happen and why the children are staying with me. My ex-wife did not believe them. I keep my daughters for over 1 and half years. The courts let them go back with their mother. The man who raped and molested my daughters got only 8 years in jail. it came out my daughters were not the only ones he molested it came up 16 counts of molesting with other children. 1 year after my daughters went back to with their mother. my ex-wife packed up and moved 900 miles away. i went to court to stop her. but the judge told her she could because she is moving down close to her dad. my ex-wife called me told me that i put an innocent man in jail. she still did not believe he molested our daughters and my ex-wife started telling my daughters it was my fault that all this happen to the point my 3 youngest daughters will not talk to me. i have not seen my 3 youngest daughters in 10 years not knowing if they were safe or if they are being hurt again. The only way i found out any news about my youngest daughter was from my oldest daughter. she had contact with them. i started having nightmares of my daughters being raped and i am trapped in the chair. i can’t break free to save them. I watch my daughters being raped and killed in front of me. I went to the Doctor They told me i had PTSD and gave me medication. it helps some. But, feeling of failing my daughters and not being able to protect them. i gave up. and overdosage on medication. I lost faith in Jesus. why didn’t he protect them? why did he let my marriage end, what have i done so bad? that he turned his back on me. i beg him for help. I have not been in church for over 14 years. i am trying to get my faith back. I don’t know how. The only daughter i have contact with is my oldest.

    • I wish I could tell you that our faith can make all the hard times go away, but that isn’t how life works. But God has promised that He will be with us through the hard times and give us grace to face them. I’m going to copy my last comment here, because I think it applies to both of these posts. “I feel for your hurt, my friend. But remember that God didn’t promise to give us an easy life. He did promise, however, that He would be with us and give us grace and strength so that we could survive the hard times. He invites us to share our struggles with him and he will give us rest. That is a tremendous miracle. People have found that rest in dungeons and while facing execution. The evil circumstances of life are caused by the sinfulness of mankind, not by God. The devil would have us blame God for it, but God wants to help us through these times. –LB” Feel free to call our toll-free number and someone will be happy to pray for you. 1 855 367 8788

  40. Wow. I don’t know where to start. I’ve been a Christian since I was a little girl. I had such faith, and I knew that God was always there when I needed him. But five years ago, I hit a bump in the road. My mental health took a sharp decline. I began to feel unhappy about myself and everything I did. My confidence deteriorated, and so did my emotional stability. This evolved into constant feelings of worthlessness, loneliness and even thoughts bordering suicidal. I would cry out to God when things were desperate, amidst anxiety attacks and even panic attacks where I was sure the world was falling apart around me. Even, every Sunday I would never fail to ask for prayer when the opportunity arose. I kept praying… and praying… but it just became a routine. Nothing happened. No big healing like many had described. No sudden boost in happiness that would last. I started resorting to other things. Bad coping mechanisms. The Internet has become addicting, I watch drama in people’s lives (drama channels on youtube) to fill a gap that feels like not even God can fill. I began doing things and looking at things that made me feel so dirty, but I did them anyway because it seemed to be the only thing that made me feel good about myself. At least, before I’d feel guilty about it. So here I am. Stuck in a rut. Feeling hopeless and overwhelmed. I know my faith in God is beginning to diminish, and I don’t know what to do.

    • Have you tried calling our toll free number? 855.367.8788 I can’t give you a lengthy answer online but I can switch the discussion to our chat system. I think you need to find someone to relate to face to face. Our phone team can help you with that and pray with you as well.

  41. Hi. I lost my love and my life seems to make no sense now.

    • Feel free to call our toll free number at 855.367.8788 for more discussion or reply here if you want to continue the discussion off line by e-mail.

  42. Hi, my name is Makena from Kenya. I’m almost losing my faith if there’s any left. I’ve trusted in God and put in so much faith in a particular issue but God didn’t fulfill my desire. I have prayed over it for over one year so i wonder, whatever happened to His ear is not dull? No words are encouraging me right now especially the ones on Rom 8:28
    I’m so active in ministry and encouraging others. I don’t even feel the warmth of fellowship no more, i can’t pray.

    • Hi Makena, I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling like this. I don’t know the issue, but I wonder if you’ve been praying for God’s direction in this issue? Maybe He sees that answering your prayer wouldn’t be good for you? I think it is always important for us to be open to the possibility that God may say “no,” or “wait awhile,” in answer to our prayers. For an illustration of this, read 2 Corinthians 2:7 – 10. Even Paul had to take no for his answer. But that didn’t mean that God didn’t care. But God gave him grace to accept no for an answer. God bless you as you work your way through this situation. [If you want to discuss this further in private, leave a note in the comments, and I will email you.]

      • Oooo I totally agree! My family started going to a small church by our house and from the beginning we could tell they were all “in” with one another. I still continued to give it a chance and told myself and family we were there for the Lors not the people. Well got saved and baptized at the little church and in my opinion you would have thought the preacher was dunking satan himself in that water. The people of the church weren’t happy whatsoever and this story could go on forever but long story short we quit the church and haven’t been to another one! Ps. Myself husband daughter and son in law all excepted the Lord and all got baptized and that was the best thing to happen in our lives.

  43. Hi,im so confuse and empty I have always encourage persons to put their faith in God and in all things they do put God first. I always talk to God before I make a decision I always trust and believe his words;but all that changes a week and a half ago after I encounter some disappointments.I loved to pray and now I find it difficult to pray my heart is broken I feel lost as tho God has left me. I want to feel close to God again.

    Please pray for me
    Thank you.

  44. Thank you for these words.I feel somewhat frightened because I feel myself losing my faith.I have been through very bad trials before,I was steadfast in my faith.Lately,I’m back in other trials & I feel my faith fading.I was always the one people came to for prayer,the one who witnessed for the Lord,& now I can’t bring myself to do it.My prayer life feels empty,when I open my Bible,I see myself just looking at the pages as if they were blank.I don’t feel God’s presence anymore.Could you please pray for me.Thank you.Pat

    • Hi Pat. I’m sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Can you pinpoint any time or incident in your life that might have started this? Do you spend time in fellowship with God’s people? Here are a few things you could try. 1. Memorize encouraging scriptures. 2. Start a small prayer / study / accountability group (you may have friends who feel the same way). 3. Spend some time fasting and praying. If you are in North America, you could call our toll free number [1-855-367-8788] and speak with someone on our prayer team. They would be happy to share with you and pray with you. Note that these comments are public. If you would like to contact me privately, you can click on the chat box. Even if I’m not online, you can leave a message which will switch our conversation over to email. Blessings. Remember Jesus said: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
      (Mat 11:28-30 NKJV)

      • Hi pat, I need help I’m losing my faith in god. I been through a lot in life from loosing my father to loosing it all I got used by a close family member who robbed me and used me for everything I had. I moved on with my life have kids now I ended up reuniting with that family member who destroyed my life forgave him got him back in my life when he was at his lowest now he ended up coming up being successful with his life and kicked me to the curb. I am sick of being used I have two beautiful kids all I do is pray for a job at least to provide for my family nothing I do seems to go my way I been depressed for years now I am going nuts not knowing what else to do I am loosing my faith in god. I still pray every morning and night I have kneeled crying for help it’s like talking to a wall. I do not understand how my family member who has robbed used me has done horrible things to me can be living such a good life while I’m struggling when all I have done is good to others I don’t think I deserve this. I keep praying asking god why me what have I ever done to deserve this. I lost my father who was the only one who has ever had my back and now this family member who I once looked up to has destroyed me god doesn’t seem to make my days any brighter I wake up crying go to sleep crying what’s my purpose of being here. Please help me understand it’s been years of this I cannot take it any longer

        • Have you tried reading the book of Job? Job didn’t understand why things went wrong for him either. But he kept his faith in God in spite of that. I can’t tell you why God allows some people to suffer like this and others seem to have things go their way all through life. I don’t think this has anything to do with what you deserve or don’t deserve. However God is sovereign and has the right to plan our pathway for us. Go to https://gospelbillboards.org/free-books/ on this website and order the free book by Gary Miller, HOW CAN ANYONE SAY GOD IS GOOD? You might find it helpful.

        • Oooh boy seems like my life to the T. Ive found GOD throughout all this, everyone I know tells me I try harder than anyone, but yet my kids and I are sleeping on floors with roaches it’s so funny to me because I have told GOD im out of moves, I have no more lives left. I began to feel the Holy Spirit giving me hope, but it’s like my situation gets even more trying, I DONT understand how the average human is supposed to get through this when u don’t have the tools u need… My faith is literally the size of a seed

        • Tyquincia Tiffith

          I hope things get better. I feel the exact way crying as I type

    • Hi Pat. I can relate to your comments. I don’t know why you are struggling the way you are. You didn’t specify how you reached that point that you find yourself in. But I can say that each of us has reasons to why we end up losing faith, questioning, doubting, etc. It sounds like you are going through what the saints of old called the Dark Night of the Soul. Many strong, Godly people have gone through that and from what I can ascertain, this often occurs with men and women of faith. Men and women who love the Lord who suddenly find themselves in a dark pit of despair. We need only to look at the Scriptures to see examples of people who lost hope and faith. The Psalms are filled with similar thoughts.

      My story is long which I won’t go into now except to say that I can relate to your comments. After serving in missions, people used to come to me because they thought I was stronger in my faith (not). It looked that way but that was not true. We are all on this journey that consists of highs and lows. Sometimes those lows can seem to last for a very long time. One pastor I know of has preached on this sharing that he went through a lengthy dark time of about 7 years (?). I thought three years has been bad. Yikes. Things took a turn for me when I was forced to move out of my wonderful small mother in law apartment that I loved until the owners sold their house. I had planned to live there until the day I died. I had little choice of where I could move due to my financial limitations. I was not informed when I moved to where I am at that they had grandfathered in the smokers that lived here before they changed their smoking policy. I am allergic to tobacco and get very sick around cigarettes. My neighbor downstairs chain-smokes which filters up through the ventilation system. They said it was non-smoking but it technically isn’t. Since moving here, my health has seriously deteriorated because of someone else’s habit. I’ve tried to find other places to live but on my income of $941/month, where will I find something that will be healthy? The inner city, where violence is the norm would be my only option. An older woman (well, okay–65), I can’t defend myself if something happened. So here I sit stuck, inhaling someone else’s ugly smoking habit getting sicker by the day. If anything, this has brought out feelings of powerlessness that can lead to anger. One would hope one could turn to God at times like that to deliver them as He claims He will do in Psalm 50. But WHAT if He DOESN’T? THEN what? Meanwhile, the financial burdens keep piling up. Needless to say, it has been impossible to find a decent place to live that is safe and healthier. I have prayed & prayed asking and claiming His promises that He says He “WILL” fulfill. But what does a person do when the silence from Him becomes deafening? I reached a point where I lost hope believing that He even cares. Is He sitting on His Throne with a bowl of popcorn enjoying the life-movie? I feel like Sarah, Abraham’s wife when she laughed at hearing the news. I can just see her now: “Oh sure, yeah, right, Abe! Tell me another good one…” I imagine she must have at least wanted to say that, if she didn’t. But all that to say to you, Pat that I UNDERSTAND your feelings. While a part of me wants to give up to challenge God, another part says, I WANT to hope, I WANT to hang on, but I’m losing my grip. What then? A friend once told me the concept of cliff jumping as he referred to it. We don’t know what He can do until we let go of our hold and let Him catch us. That IS HARD.

      Lest I forget, though I am not one to blame Satan on the bad that happens but I do believe that Satan is very much alive and well and is attempting, through his minions, to attack as many Christians as possible and kill and destroy each one’s faith. The question I ask myself is, Am I going to let Him win? God tells us that the battle is not ours but HIS. Perhaps we should respectfully challenge Him. Doesn’t He also say, “prove Me, test Me…” (Though that passage refers to a different situation, the concept remains the same.) Charles Spurgeon who fought terrible depression once said ‘What earthly father doesn’t like it when his child reminds him of the promises his/her daddy made?’ As the child reminds her Father it indicates that the child has paid close attention to what her father has said. This DELIGHTS the heart of God. “Abba daddy You promised that…”

      I also think of the Psalmist who said, “HOW LONG, O Lord will You forget me forever? HOW LONG will You hide Tour face from me? HOW LONG must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day?” (Ps 13:1-2). That echoes my heart.

      Psalm 30 also says, “You hid your face; I was dismayed. To You, O Lord, I cry, and to the Lord I plead for mercy: “What profit is there in my death if I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise You? Will it tell of Your faithfulness? Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me! O Lord, BE MY helper!”

      Ironically, Isa 40 gives us insights into God’s heart when He said to Jacob, “Why do you complain, Jacob? Why do you say, Israel, “MY WAY IS HIDDEN FROM THE LORD; MY CAUSE IS DISREGARDED BY MY GOD?” V. 27 It appears that when God asked Jacob this question, it reveals to us that what we’re suffering is not overlooked by Him. He is El Roi, the God who Sees. Therefore, the next time we are tempted to say “enough!” let’s remember truth, not manipulative lies.

      In short, I wish I could say that things will “poof!” suddenly get better. But He does tell us that He will carry us. And, this is where faith must take precedence over feelings. If you’re like me, you might live by feelings which can be a dangerous thing because, as we all know, feelings are deceptive and cannot be relied upon as truth. But God’s Word can.

      You are not alone. “A bruised reed, He will NOT break.” May God show you His mercy and kindness. Blessings, Pat.

      • Pat,

        I hardly have the words….. But, I had to respond. I am, and have been, going through a dark night of the soul for many years now. I have read countless platitudes and heard more than my share of prosperity messages….enough to anger me towards my own brothers and sisters within the body of Christ….

        I am beyond tired of hearing people throwing the book of Job arounf as “the answer” because they’ve nothing better to offer (despite their best intentions).

        I am at the lowest place in my life that I have ever been, and the truth is that I may not outlast this visceral despair and grief. But, I wanted to let you know that your reply was one of the most sincere and beautiful that I’ve ever come across. Your faith, your knowledge of the Scriptures, and your graceful perseverance are a true testament and are so beautiful. I wept as I read your words of validation and encouragement.

        You have a beautiful gift. May God bless you, my sister. <3

    • I understand. IAM going through this it seems like forever. Please pray for me too. I just feel sick so much.

  45. Dear brother in Christ, I have gone through your wordings. They are so comforting. Let me share my experience. When ever I go out on some important work I always seek God’s word in the form his promise and start the work. But, I fail in that work, though I read Bible everyday. This is giving me lot of depression, because not man to trust but seek only his word to guide me. But all his promises never accomplished in my case. I am loosing hope and faith in God. I barely used to tell everyone that I am a converted Christian. But, everyone will ask what your god did to you. Believing idols we and you stand in the same position..Please help me to go back to his presence with faith.

    Thanks
    Sarah

    • Sometimes people serve God for what they can get out of it. The New Testament doesn’t support the common idea that God is required to give us lots of money and other blessings if we serve Him. Rather, our reward is in knowing that we love Him and obey Him. Blessings to you as you serve God.

      • What do you do when you have no where to live but with a family that treats you like a stranger but yet lets strangers in? They serve in the church but when they get home true colors come out. Why does God allow such people to to serve in the church? I know we aren’t perfect but these people are two faced and it hurts because it’s my daughter so I question God and don’t understand why?

        • @Kim. Thanks for your comment. Unfortunately, people do not always do what God wants them to do. He will not force people to do what is right. Often in such situations, innocent people suffer because of someone else’s sin. Keep praying for your family and return good for evil. They may never change, but you will receive a blessing for it. LB

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